Righting our generational wrongs

To Right a Wrong: God’s Promise to Restore Generations

“To right a wrong” means to correct a mistake or injustice. It carries with it a moral and ethical obligation to restore fairness, balance, and justice. One of the greatest injustices in history was slavery—a system that dehumanized African Americans and stripped them of their God-given rights. Among these injustices was the denial of marriage. Slaves were legally defined as property and therefore had no capacity to enter enforceable contracts, including the sacred covenant of marriage. Families were ripped apart against their will, leaving generations marked by this brokenness.

My heart has been broken repeatedly by the Lord as He’s revealed to me the depth of this injustice within my own lineage. My ancestors were denied the right to marry, forced apart by cruelty and oppression. Yet today, many of us willingly walk away from our spouses, with divorce rates at an all-time high. I believe that God, in this hour, is righting this wrong. He is raising up couples who will serve as a new paradigm for love, marriage, and commitment. These unions will reflect His glory and restore the foundation of His church, which is built on strong, God-centered families.

A Call to Fulfill the Promises of the Past

I will never forget the impact of watching the movie Django Unchained on January 17, 2013. The film, which depicts the pain and sorrow of slavery, brought me face-to-face with the suffering endured by my ancestors. I was particularly struck by the lengths the main character, played by Jamie Foxx, went to rescue his wife. It stirred something deep within me, a realization of the unimaginable pain my ancestors faced when families were torn apart.

As I reflected on their suffering, the Lord reminded me of Hebrews 11:37-40:

"They were stoned, they were sawn in two, they were put to death by the sword. They went about in sheepskins and goatskins, destitute, persecuted, and mistreated—
the world was not worthy of them. They wandered in deserts and mountains, living in caves and in holes in the ground.
These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised, since God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect."

This passage became real to me in that moment. The promises God made to them were not forgotten. Though they did not receive them in their lifetime, we are their fulfillment. God planned something better, that together with us, their promises would be made perfect.

A Divine Encounter

The following day, January 18, 2013, I walked into my office and closed the door. Overwhelmed by the weight of what I had seen and the suffering I now understood, I began to weep deeply. I thought of the pain and sacrifices my ancestors endured and how the Lord was weaving their promises into my life. As I knelt in prayer, extending my hands, I felt as though fire was being poured out over me. God revealed to me that His restoration wasn’t just for three generations past—it stretched further, reaching back into the depths of history.

A few years later, God used Apostle Dr. Matthew Stevenson III to prophetically confirm what He had spoken to me in secret. Dr. Stevenson declared that I had labored and suffered for many years, and God was restoring everything that was lost. This confirmation solidified what the Lord had already shown me: we are the answer to our ancestors’ prayers.

The Cloud of Witnesses

Hebrews 12:1 tells us that we are surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses—those who have gone before us, cheering us on as we run our race. Pastor John Hannah recently preached a message titled Birth It as part of his promise series. He said, “Some of you have great-great-great grandparents you’ve never met, but God made them a promise. You’ve already been marked and highly favored, and everything is coming into alignment just to get to you.”

This message echoed what the Lord had already placed in my heart. Our ancestors dug wells of promise, but it is our generation’s responsibility to uncover them. Just as Abraham dug wells and Isaac reopened them, we are continuing the legacy of faith. He is the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, and His promises are generational.

The Restoration of Marriage

God is beginning this work of restoration with marriages. He is divinely aligning couples to fulfill His intended purpose for love and relationships. These unions will:

  • Restore hope in love and commitment.

  • Break generational curses of brokenness, divorce, and relational dysfunction.

  • Demonstrate God’s glory through unity and covenant.

  • Strengthen the church by rebuilding the foundation of family.

Marriage is not just about two people coming together; it is a prophetic act of restoration. It is God’s judgment against the enemy’s attempts to destroy families and relationships. Through these unions, God is healing generations and fulfilling promises made long ago.

A Call to Receive the Promises

God is inviting us to rise in faith and believe for everything He has promised—not only for ourselves but for the generations that came before us. He is not just restoring what was lost; He is multiplying it. As we align with His will and step into His promises, we become the fulfillment of our ancestors’ prayers.

They are watching. They are cheering. And God is moving. Get ready—He is about to right generational wrongs, heal our families, and restore marriages for His glory.

Our symphony 

 The greatest love song we will every right

will be when we become one

each night.

As we become the song,

 and right the generational wrong,

as we are strung together, 

Forever.

As our hearts play as one,

As we still rise with each setting Sun.

When the music stops playing but we can still hear our song, 

When days seem long,

Make me a song,

that rewrites the history of our wrong,

But I am the instrument, and you are the pen,

Go Deep within, 

Back to a place where love was forbidden,

Stolen and had to be hidden,

Finish the songs from generations heaven never heard,

Write them with your tongue without one word,

Play me like a note,

Fill me with hope that makes me float,

Beat me like a drum,

Thy kingdom come,

His will be done,

As we become one,

Play me like a flute,

and take root,

Hitting keys on me like an organ

Vital

Inside of me, 

That write a melody,

Of love,

Bringing the angels to attention from above,

To have to record every stroke, 

that creates a new note never spoke,

From songs only the angels can hear and are translated,

That’s long and awaited,

As our ancestors gather to dance to a symphony in the gate,

That has overcome death and hate,

That tore them apart,

But recovers all from the song in our heart, 

 

Striking a chord,

Honoring you as my king and Lord, 

Becoming the hook,

No longer shook,

releasing sounds that become a crescendo 

Of our symphony,

 in harmony,

as we become one

with every rising Sun. 

 

That plays from the rhythm of our souls,

That has been tipped over from generations of tears from bowls,

That are a fragrance of sacrifice that cost their life,

As we are joined as husband and wife,

As our bodies create a lyric that overcame defeat

That trumped over their pain, 

that now establishes our rule and our reign.

Hidden figures

I’ll never forget the impact of watching Hidden Figures in 2016. The movie stirred something deep within me, reminding me of the generational struggles those before me endured and all I am fighting for today. It brought to mind the book My Time in Heaven, where the author described a classroom in heaven teaching math far beyond earthly genius—even to kindergarteners. Katherine Johnson, portrayed in the film, exemplified this divine brilliance. Her extraordinary mathematical gift wasn’t just talent—it was a God-given ability designed to fulfill a critical assignment on Earth. Her calculations ensured the success of the first moon mission, and her role was so vital that John Glenn personally requested her verification before his flight.

This story reveals a deeper truth: God assigns each of us a purpose that is intricately planned and far bigger than we can imagine. Just as Katherine Johnson’s calculations opened a portal that safely returned astronauts to Earth, your gifts are divinely orchestrated to impact history.

Even when racial tension and societal barriers tried to diminish Katherine and her peers’ contributions, they persevered and changed the course of history. Like them, you may feel unseen—a “hidden figure” in your own life’s narrative. But God sees you. Every tear, act of service, and sacrifice has been recorded in heaven. As Job said, "My record is on high, and my witness is in heaven."

This is a season where God is honoring the hidden figures—those whose contributions may have been overlooked by the world but are cherished by Him. Your value and purpose will be revealed in His perfect time. Stay faithful, for God never forgets.

Dear future husband: We are built to last

I first wrote you a letter on 12/20/20 and it’s now been four years. I know who you are now, but I didn’t then. Apostle Matthew Stevenson, III recently made one of the profoundest statements I have ever heard. He said, there is nothing greater than reality except revelation. My revelation from God gave me has sustained me through this time. Discovering you was a dream come true. Uncovering who you were and watching you evolve into the man God has called you to be to step into your role as a husband again has been like watching a movie and you are the best part. I know the struggle is real. It was real for me too. You said once, I almost coded but you thanked me for giving love another chance and this time it would be forever. God opened that portal of my heart from over twenty years ago and let you feel the weight of that moment. You heard my cry. When I thought it was the end like Lazurus did, Jesus showed up. He wouldn’t let me give up on the love. Finding you was recovering that love and all that I lost. It’s how I knew it was you. You are my King. You are my lion and my lamb. In the heart of my husband’s letter I wrote about you on 1/19/21 before God allowed me to know you. You are all those things and more. You have been learning what it means to sacrifice and the price it cost for us to become everything God said we would be.

We are built to last. We were forged in our individual struggles to become fortified as a coupe through our trials and tribulations. We became overcomers in preparation to overcome any obstacle that arises in our union. I don’t have any reservations that you will be all that I need. I’m confident in knowing the Lord heard my faintest desires of my heart and you will be the personification of love.

I get insanely excited knowing we will walk hand and hand through this thing called life. Think about it. We will be partners in freedom. Partners in faith. Partners in our dreams. Partners in love. Partners in purpose. We will be partners in purpose unstoppable. God took out his holy chisel and sharpened and molded us. What God has joined together, let no man put asunder.

From the moment I began to listen to you, I knew I was HER. I have been invested from day one. I celebrate our sameness and our differences. You have come to understand that our differences are not deficits. Our differences have given us opportunities to stretch and grow together without leaving each other behind.

We have learned to communicate with each other in creative ways without ever talking. Brian McKnight has a song called Crazy love. He says in one stanza he can hear her heart from 1000 miles away. You can hear me like that. I can hear what you don’t say. This is one of the things I love most about you among many. William Shakespeare said, “Brevity is the soul of wit, which means that cleaver people can express intelligent things using very few words. With every poem I have ever written to you, I wrote you a chapter in our love story. We are overcomers. We are unstoppable. We are built to last. I can’t wait to marry you.

Forever,

Marie

Rejection is God’s preservative

Before I begin to share why rejection is God’s preservative, let me define what a preservative is and why they are used. A preservative is something that preserves or has the power of preserving; specifically: an additive used to protect against decay, discoloration, or spoilage.

God was protecting me from being destroyed although it didn’t feel like it in the situation. God wants you to also know that rejection was his protection. It was a perservative. He was preserving you for the right one even though you couldn’t see it then.

I remember I had to come face to face with myself. I didn’t love me. I wanted my ex-husband to love me broken but I didn’t love me broken. Sometimes we are looking for love from others but not the one that is love and that is God. I remember the day I opened my heart fully to the Lord to love me. I asked Him to reveal to me the love Him and I shared in eternity. It was the most intimate outpouring for years of encounter after encounter of Him loving on me.

Rejection placed me in a new direction and became a preservative. The word says in the songs of Solomon that God’s banner over us is love. God’s banner over me is love and it is over you as well. I didn’t take my own life when the enemy came to steal, kill, and destroy me because I had a revelation of God’s love. If you are struggling with suicide and rejection like I once did, God wants you to know he loves you and rejection didn’t come to destroy you, it came to preserve you and redirect you to his love. The enemy tries to get us so entangled with things that are not of God so we end up rejecting the will of God for our lives.

Another way the Lord showed me how he used rejection to preserve me was for saving me for my future husband and not allowing my sexual identity to be perverted. I wrote a letter on 12/20/24 to my future husband. I wrote I now understand every time I was rejected that God was preserving my love for you. As I look back in hindsight over my life, I see how God even before I accepted Christ didn’t allow rejection to push me into a path of complete destruction because of rejection. Rejection is God’s preservative when we learn to respond to God’s love and not allow the enemy to use it to bring destruction in our lives. I will forever be grateful for every time I was ever rejected and how God has redirected my life in Him.

Prayer:

I pray for all those that are struggling with rejection and even suicide that you will remember that God promised to deliver us from every affliction. I pray God will give you a revelation of his love like he did me. He is a very present help in the time of trouble. I pray you allow him to heal your soul. Be free from the spirit of rejection and suicide and open your heart for all God has for you. I pray God will open your spiritual and natural eyes and that you will lift your eyes to the hills where your help comes from and know that your best days are ahead of you. God has not forgotten you even if you caused your own sabotage like Samson. God remembered Samson as he cried out for revenge for his two eyes. May the Lord remember you and avenge you for every wound in Jesus’ name.

 

When Love aligns

When Love Aligns

Every relationship comes with its challenges. When love aligns, it doesn’t always feel like butterflies or smell like roses. Sometimes it smells like sacrifice and feels like stretching.

People say there’s poop and pee in the dating pool—and honestly, it can feel that way. Many are walking away from faith, and the love of many has grown cold. The Bible said it would happen. People are refusing to marry, and for many women, it seems like there are seven to one—if not more.

We all want the fairytale, but even in every fairytale, there’s always a part of the story where suffering shows up. Before Cinderella went to the ball, she was covered in ashes. Before Ruth met Boaz, she gleaned in the field. Before Jesus was exalted, He was crucified.

God is not just the Author of love—He is the Author and Finisher of our faith. He writes our wrongs and aligns our hearts to His will so we can receive His kind of love. But too many believers have bought into the lie that if you’re a Christian, you won’t suffer. We want the cup of blessing, but not the cup of suffering.

Yet the Word tells us it pleased the Father to bruise Jesus. (Isaiah 53:10)

In John 6, Jesus said, “He that eats my flesh and drinks my blood dwells in Me, and I in him.” Many were offended by this hard saying. They murmured. They questioned. And many turned back and followed Him no more. But Peter stayed. When Jesus asked, “Will you also go away?” Peter responded, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life.”

Jesus was establishing covenant. He was teaching His disciples what true alignment looks like. Relationships mirror that same covenant—especially marriage.

At first, it feels like a fairytale. But after the tests, the tough conversations, and the four seasons of life, some turn back. Love is not sustained by emotion; it’s sustained by alignment. When love aligns with God’s will, it endures.

Every relationship will have its own blessings and sufferings. Offenses will come, but blessed are those who are not offended. Love aligned with Christ can withstand storms because it’s built on obedience, not preference.

When Jesus looked at the twelve and asked, “Will you also go away?” He wasn’t just questioning their loyalty—He was measuring their alignment.

When love aligns, the one who stays will say like Peter did, “To whom shall I go? You have the words of eternal life.”

Your purpose partner will not only walk with you in promise—they’ll stand with you through pain. They’ll feel so connected to your assignment that leaving you would mean abandoning their purpose.

Jesus knew Peter would betray Him, yet He still loved him because Peter was tied to His eternal purpose. That’s what alignment looks like—it’s not about perfection; it’s about purpose.

When you meet your purpose partner, you’ll know. You’ll be willing to pay the price to fulfill your destiny together. Allow God to perfect all things concerning you. Trust His timing. Obey His voice. He will not disappoint you.

Prayer:

Father, bring clarity and confirmation when love aligns. Even when the journey is hard to understand, give us discernment to know who is for us and who is not. Protect us from offense and strengthen our hearts to stay aligned with Your will. Grant wisdom to build our homes and understanding to fulfill Your purposes in our lives—individually and together. In Jesus’ name, amen.

It was a package deal

“It Was a Package Deal”

Some men really think that if they can’t have the woman, then they don’t want to be bothered with their own kids. I’ll never forget that moment standing before the judge with the father of my oldest son. We were there to establish child support — something I had avoided for a long time because I didn’t want the drama. But after doing everything I could on my own, I finally realized I needed help.

Shortly before our court date, he told me to tell public aid that I didn’t know who the father was. I remember looking at him like he had lost his mind. I had too much pride and integrity to lie. I had never been with anyone but him, and I wasn’t about to pretend otherwise. He was mad that I had taken him to court. But what he said next broke something inside of me and woke up something deeper at the same time.

He leaned over, right there in front of the judge, and whispered, “It’s a package deal.”

Then, without hesitation, he waved all his visitation rights to our son.

And that was the day he walked away — from me and from his own child — for seventeen long years.

That moment shaped me in ways I didn’t understand back then. It taught me that some men only want access to you, not accountability for what comes with you. They want your body, your energy, your nurturing spirit — but not your responsibility or your anointing.

Recently, I watched a podcast where a man claimed his children were “artificially inseminated,” trying to escape paying child support. I shook my head, realizing how generational that spirit of avoidance really is — that spirit of walking away when the real work begins.

But then, I thought of Boaz.

In the story of Ruth, we see what true redemption looks like. Ruth had a past — just like all of us. She was a Moabitess, someone who didn’t “belong” according to others’ standards. Yet, Boaz didn’t see her through the lens of her history. He saw her heart. He saw her honor. He saw her faithfulness in the small, unseen places.

The man who was next in line to marry Ruth refused. Why? Because he said, “I cannot redeem it for myself, lest I mar my own inheritance.” Translation: he didn’t want to risk his reputation or what he already had going on. He wanted the land — but not Ruth.

It was a package deal.

Boaz, on the other hand, understood that when God brings you someone, it’s not just about what they come with — it’s about what they carry. Boaz didn’t just want Ruth’s body; he wanted her purpose. He made provisions for her before she was his. He covered her in integrity. He saw her value long before he called her his wife.

And that’s what a man of God does. He doesn’t just claim you; he honors what God is doing through you.

Some men want you for your beauty, your business, your brilliance, or your bank account. But the one that God has for you will love you holistically — your anointing, your calling, your child, your story, and your scars.

The right one will recognize that you are the blessing, not the burden.

So, to every woman reading this who’s ever been told she’s “too much” or “has too much baggage,” know this: you are the pearl of great price, not the problem. God will hide your worth from the wrong one so He can reveal it to the right one. Wait for your Boaz.

When your core values align, your love will align. Don’t settle for the counterfeit.

It’s a package deal — and you, beloved, are worth the whole thing.

The longest mile

Sometimes in life we will need someone to take a walk with us. It could be a walk each day to encourage your friend to exercise with you or it could be a walk on a journey in life where that person’s presence becomes the strength you need just to keep going. Everyone needs someone. Jesus sent the disciples out two by two. Jesus needed the disciples to carry his message to the world after his death.

There were many times I could look back over my life and see I needed someone, but I felt like I was all alone. One of the first things the Lord did for me when I received salvation was, He walked with me backwards in intercession and showed me how much He was with me as a little girl when I felt alone the most. However, no matter how much we know Jesus is there, the word says a brother is born for adversity. I needed my mom for this mile I was about to have to walk. In Matthew 5:41 If anyone asks you to go one mile, go with them two miles. I asked my mom to walk this mile with me and she walked two.

Let me tell you how I will remember her the most and honor her for how she stepped up to the plate for one of the times I needed her the most. Shortly after the death of their father, my late ex-husband, my youngest son decided he was going to take control of his own life. He became completely defiant. He was attending a school that required him to wear a uniform. He decided he would no longer be wearing a uniform because he said I was trying to control him. He decided he no longer needed school and had scored so high on his scores that top schools were recruiting him for high school. He decided to smoke weed on the school property. I was constantly being called off my job because he also decided he didn’t want to live anymore and was suicidal.

I was completely overwhelmed by his behavior. It is too much to tell. I had the psychologist coming into my home, weekly. I took him to the psychiatrist. I was taking him to church to get deliverance. The system forced me to allow him on medication or else I was going to get charged with a case. His behavior escalated against me, and I came to a breaking point. This went on non-stop for two years. I knew we needed greater intervention.

There were so many days, he was in a different hospital. I couldn’t go up with my baby at the time. My mom would sit in the car for hours so I could visit him and then I would sit so she could visit him. Every weekend for four years and as needed I was on the road stopping stuff, bringing him something or we were going to visit him for hours. She would even go by herself on long bus rides just to take him something he requested while I was working. My mom nor me didn’t know that this would be the longest mile it would seem we would ever walk together because she was also slowing losing her vision and dying from cancer. My mom past last July 2023, but her presence was a silent strength to me so I could keep walking.

I want to encourage others that may be struggling as a caregiver in some capacity. Find you some resources to get the help you need. Continue to trust God. Get a support group and find you someone that will walk what may seem to be the longest mile of your life. Be thankful for those that have been willing to walk with us and may we never take for granted the sacrifice it may have cost when we ask someone to walk a mile with us.  I honor my mom, Beverly Bares, for walking one of the longest miles of my life with me.

It’s not what it looks like

It’s not what it looks like. How many of us have had bad situations happen in our lives and others judged us without knowing the whole story? I can relate to the story of Mephibosheth. His nurse decided in fear to pick him up and started to run to protect him and instead ended up injuring him. There are so many parents and even single parents that can relate to this story. Children do not come with a manual. Most of us are trying to do the best we can with the resources and mental and emotional damage we are carrying while also carrying and trying to protect our children. A real parent wants better than what they had growing up, even if it was good. There is always better but sometimes good can be the enemy to better.

His nurse didn’t just sit there because they had it good and didn’t assume they would be okay. No, she started running because she wanted better, and didn’t want that to be his end like his father and grandfather’s unexpected death as well. However, she ended up being the one to hurt him the most. There I was a single mother that had been through a difficult marriage and divorce. Then just three years after our divorce, their father, my ex-husband at 38 years old died. Just like Jonathan’s unexpected death in the battle that day, I was left carrying the weight of our young two sons and I was on the run. I was running from fear, abuse, and destruction, just like she was. Praying that I would be able to protect my sons from the aftermath of the war we had just come out of.

So many women have lost their spouses, their children’s fathers voluntarily or involuntary and our children have been left crippled and lamed. These situations have placed many of our children in situations that have compromised them physically, mentally, emotionally, psychologically, and even financially. There are thousands of children in the foster care system because of being dropped like Mephibosheth. However, every child that enters the foster care systems story is not because the child was being abused, it might be like my situation because while I was trying to protect mine, the weight became so great: he was dropped. This was heartbreaking to me, but we could no longer coexist together.

In my situation and many others, it’s not what it looks like. This means there is much more to it than what you are seeing or may know. Things got bad. I had a young son before I got married and when my ex-husband left me and we divorced, before this happened, I would constantly let him know I was not taking the boys with me. I was struggling because now I had three young sons to raise alone. My weight was great. All hell broke out in my home as soon as he closed his eyes. My second, his oldest, was being a bad example to his brother. So, it wasn’t just one of them, it was two of them at the same time. It began to affect my youngest son the most mentally.

The more I tried to protect and get him help, which was documented for two years during this time, it just got worse. I couldn’t take it anymore. I exhausted all my resources and when things became physical from my youngest son after multiple encounters, I realized things had to change. I had to let go because he would no longer collaborate with me. He was brought into the foster care system, and I was assigned an attorney. She spoke to me briefly on my first court date, having had some time to review my case. She said, “I know why you are here, but I also want you to know I am prepared to go to war for you.”

The moment I stood in front of the judge, he looked down and smiled at me and said, “Something is telling me you have done everything you can do. He had one request of me, and that was to never break my connection with my son. I didn’t, even when it became challenging. I was not charged with anything, but I went into the lion’s den for one year until God closed the mouth of the lions and cleared my name and reputation.

One day, I will share my testimony to encourage and strength other parents and youth, and my youngest son will as well. God will get the glory out of his life. The gates of hell did not prevail against me because of my relationship with Christ. God has not forgotten every Mephibosheth. Just like he caused King David to remember Mephibosheth, God is raising you like King David that will bring our sons to the king’s table, and they will be reminded who God has called them to be. They are royalty. They will be delivered from thinking they are nothing but a dog as he said because the enemy has stolen their fathers and caused them to be displaced. King David divinely restored everything to Mephibosheth that he should have had, and God is going to do the same for many young men.

2 Samuel 4:4 And Jonathan, Saul's son, had a son that was lame of his feet. He was five years old when the tidings came of Saul and Jonathan out of Jezreel, and his nurse took him up, and fled: and it happened, as she made haste to flee, that he fell, and became lame. And his name was Mephibosheth.

 

Sometimes you will appear crazy

“Sometimes You’ll Appear Crazy”

Sometimes you’ll appear crazy to avoid destruction—and actually be delivered from the hand of the enemy. Sometimes you’ll appear crazy because you’re willing to take risks that others won’t. We all get ourselves into situations that just don’t make sense. We sit there afterward and ask, “Why did I do that? Why did I go there? Why did I risk that?”

In 1 Samuel 21, David had just parted ways with Jonathan. On the run from King Saul, he found himself at Nob, standing before Ahimelech the priest. The priest was startled to see David alone and questioned his motives. David’s response was strategic, even deceptive—he told Ahimelech he was on a secret mission for the king and asked for bread. David was hungry, desperate, and in survival mode. He was doing what he had to do.

Sometimes obedience will make you look irrational. David risked his life to get food for his men. He walked into enemy territory to secure what was needed. That’s what bold obedience looks like—it doesn’t always make sense to human reasoning. Are you willing to look crazy to obey God and take a risk others won’t?

But let’s flip the script for a moment. What David did could also be viewed as an act of self-sabotage. He placed himself in a compromising position because of his appetite. Hunger made him vulnerable. Sometimes our greatest mistakes don’t come from rebellion but from need. When we’re in survival mode, we’ll do things that make sense to desperation but not to destiny.

I’ve been there. I’ve gone back to the very places that broke me—relationships, situations, environments that once violated or abandoned me—thinking maybe it would be different this time. I’ve called it love, loyalty, faith, or ministry, but deep down, it was self-sabotage. Two words that I had to confront in my own life.

As Pastor Dharius Daniels said, “When you increase self-awareness, you decrease self-sabotage.” The moment David realized he had been recognized in the enemy’s camp, panic took over. He feared for his life, and so he pretended to be insane—foaming at the mouth, drooling on his beard, and pounding on the city gate (1 Samuel 21:12–15). It looked humiliating, but it saved his life.

That’s the tension: sometimes panic makes us act out of character, but sometimes that moment of appearing “crazy” becomes the vehicle for our deliverance. David’s act looked foolish, but it kept him from destruction. It wasn’t his strength that saved him—it was God’s mercy in his vulnerability.

In today’s culture, “appearing crazy” might not look like foaming at the mouth. It might look like walking away from a relationship everyone expected you to stay in. It might look like leaving a job that’s killing your peace or turning down an opportunity because God said no. It might look like saying “I need help” when you’ve always been the strong one. To the world, it looks foolish—but to Heaven, it looks like faith.

God is still delivering people who appear crazy. He’s protecting those who step out, risk obedience, and choose healing over performance. And if you’ve ever acted out of fear or found yourself in a compromising situation—know this: God is merciful. Just like He delivered David, He’s delivering you too.

The face of God

I love the song, Mary, did you know? It’s this line that made me think deeper. The song writer asks a question, Mary did you know when you kissed your baby boy, you kissed the face of God? That is such a powerful question, and the answer is yes. However, have we all stopped to wonder how common Mary and Joseph and his own siblings had become with him like we do sometimes to others. Some people will never be able to see God unless they see him through your face.

Let’s rewind a story in the bible. Jacob connives and schemes with his mother Racheal to manipulate the plan of God. Remember, the two brothers were fighting in her womb, and she inquiries about them. God lets her know before they are even born, that the older one would serve the younger one. They do this by devising a plot twist to steal her other son’s blessing. On the back of Jacob already waiting to catch his brother at a vulnerable moment when his hunger supersedes his passion for his birthright. He forgets how valuable it is and sells it for a temporary situation that brings him satisfaction that will cost him something permanent. How many of us have fallen for this same temporary moment and ended up with something we can never change? I ended up with a burden and a blessing.

Only God can restore and heal us in our families and relationships when we have damaged them through reckless encounters to satisfy us only for a moment that ends up costing us precious time. But there is hope in God just like it was for Jacob and Esau.

Jacob is so afraid that the consequences of his past are going to overshadow his future. However, God had already gone before him like he has for you and me. He discovers on this road that God was with him all along. When he sees Esau, he begins to bow to alert him that he is coming in peace and humility. Jacob had really changed. His actions demonstrated that to his twin. You are about to get your butterfly wings. God saw you changing just like a caterpillar metamorphosis’ into a beautiful butterfly.

Some people are being raised as the face of God. Pastor Darius Daniels said, in a recent message, The conclusion of the matter, God loves us so much that He chooses to use us as examples. It’s our choice whether we become a model of what to do or a lesson in what not to do. The enemy wanted to make me an example of failure, but God is taking my life to make me an example of success of what He can do during incredible odds and difficult situations. That is our call together as overcomers. We are being raised as poster children.

This means that to see them serving him and in a place of transformation and integrity, it will be such a witness that God is real. God has done the work in your life and when others see your face, they are going to know they have also seen the face of God through you. Believe God to deliver your loved ones and bring reconciliation. God is giving you a revelation and others that he can restore to the utmost. People are going to say like Jacob, to see you in a place of restoration, for to see your face is like seeing the face of God.

Genesis 33: 3 He himself went on ahead and bowed down to the ground seven times as he approached his brother. But Esau ran to meet Jacob and embraced him; he threw his arms around his neck and kissed him. And they wept.

But Esau said, “I already have plenty, my brother. Keep what you have for yourself.”

10 “No, please!” said Jacob. “If I have found favor in your eyes, accept this gift from me. For to see your face is like seeing the face of God now that you have received me favorably.

 

Do you love me?

One of the most painful things you can experience in an intimate relationship is when someone questions your love. You’ve given, sacrificed, endured—and still, they ask, “Do you love me?”

Peter knew that feeling. He wasn’t just a disciple—he was handpicked by Jesus. He had all-access to the Son of God. Peter was the one invited to walk on water. He was there on the Mount of Transfiguration. He got to see Jesus in His glory. He was in the garden of Gethsemane, but he fell asleep when he should have been watching. He was the only one bold enough to say, “You are the Christ,” and Jesus confirmed that Heaven itself had revealed it to him.

Yet despite all that closeness, Peter also denied Jesus three times. And still, Jesus restored him. That’s love.

After everything Peter had seen and done, there came a day when Jesus asked him three times, “Do you love Me?”—but not just “Do you love Me?” He asked, “Do you love Me more than these?”

That question pierced Peter’s heart. It grieved him. Jesus wasn’t trying to humiliate him; He was trying to heal him. He was calling Peter back into alignment. He was showing Peter that love isn’t just a feeling—it’s a call to action. Each time Peter answered, Jesus gave him an assignment: Feed My lambs. Feed My sheep.

Sometimes, our actions make people—and even God—question our love. Not because He doesn’t already know the answer, but because He wants us to know what it costs to prove it.

Jesus told Peter that his love would one day cost him his life. He was preparing him for that level of sacrifice. “When you were young, you dressed yourself and went where you wanted. But when you are old, someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go.”

That verse shook me the first time I really understood it. Jesus was letting Peter know that loving Him wasn’t going to be convenient—it was going to be costly.

I remember when God asked me the same question: “Do you love Me?”

It was during the darkest season of my life. My late ex-husband had told me over and over that he was going to leave. I had done everything I could to make it work—fought for him, prayed for him, cried for him. I remember the day I came before the Lord, completely broken. I told God, “I love him. I can’t live without him.” I meant it. I was suicidal.

That’s when the Lord spoke softly but firmly: “There is no greater love than this—that a man lay down his life for his friends.”

I died that day. Not physically, but spiritually. Something in me surrendered. I stopped trying to fix what only God could heal. I stopped making my love conditional on someone else’s response. I gave God all of me.

From that moment on, I began to live differently. My identity wasn’t tied to being chosen by man—it was anchored in being chosen by God. My responses changed because dead men don’t respond. The Word of God began to govern my emotions. I stopped bleeding from what hurt me and started pouring from what healed me.

Like Peter, I found restoration through brokenness. The same Jesus who asked, “Do you love Me?” also covered Peter’s failure and still trusted him with His sheep. That’s the kind of God we serve.

Today, He’s still asking the same question: Do you love Me?

And if you do, show it. Feed His sheep. Love who He’s assigned to you. Die to yourself daily. Because love isn’t just spoken—it’s demonstrated.

The table the Lord has prepared

Don’t Give Up Your Seat at the Table

When we discern an enemy, our first instinct is often to get as far away from them as possible. Our flesh says, “Block, unfriend, and delete.” And if our friends don’t follow suit, we question their loyalty. But Kingdom friendship doesn’t operate by earthly standards.

Proverbs 27:6 reminds us, “Faithful are the wounds of a friend, but the kisses of an enemy are deceitful.” A true friend will wound you—not to harm, but to heal. You need discernment to know the difference between the one who wounds to make you better and the one who kisses to keep you blind.

Sometimes, we confuse the two. We call truth-tellers enemies and deceivers friends because they make us feel comfortable. But in this season, God is sharpening our discernment—not so we can run from people, but so we can recognize the purpose of both friends and enemies in our story.

Psalm 23:5 says, “Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies.” The Lord doesn’t remove your enemies before He blesses you—He reserves them a seat. Why? Because the table He prepares isn’t just about you eating—it’s about God revealing His glory through you.

There are three things we must discern about this table:

  1. Is this the table the Lord prepared, or one I set up myself?

  2. Am I aware that my enemies will have a seat too?

  3. Will I stay in my seat, even when I’m uncomfortable?

Too many of us give up our seat because we don’t like who’s sitting across from us. But that seat holds your next level of anointing, authority, and overflow.

Jesus modeled this perfectly in John 13. He came to the table fully aware that His hour had come. He didn’t hide from betrayal—He faced it with understanding. He knew Judas would betray Him and Peter would deny Him, yet He still served them both.

We need the discernment of the sons of Issachar in this hour—to know the times and seasons of God for our lives and those connected to us. Some people are Peters—they may fail you, but they are meant to be restored. Others are Judases—they have a role to play, but they cannot go where you’re going.

Jesus never exposed Judas to the others. He treated him with love, knowing he was a vessel of dishonor with divine purpose. That’s maturity. That’s surrender.

Matthew 5:44 tells us to “love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you.” When we do this from a place of pain and persecution, it purifies our hearts and perfects God’s love in us.

God is calling us higher—to a table of maturity. He’s separating us from our Judas connections and restoring us to our Peter relationships. But remember: the presence of your enemies at the table is not punishment—it’s proof that God trusts you to sit and stay.

Don’t give up your seat because of who’s watching you eat. Don’t let bitterness make you push back from the table the Lord has prepared. God saved you a seat—not just a crumb.

The woman who came to Jesus for her daughter’s healing understood this. Even when He said she wasn’t part of the Kingdom, she pressed in by faith. She said, “Even the dogs eat the crumbs that fall from their master’s table.” That kind of faith moved Jesus.

But here’s the truth—many of us stop at the crumbs. We call crumbs breakthrough when God is inviting us to the full feast. Healing was her miracle, but deliverance was her inheritance. Don’t settle for the crumbs when God has given you a chair.

Be grateful for progress, but don’t stop there. He’s calling you higher—out of survival, into sonship. Don’t give up your seat. Sit down, eat, and let His glory be revealed in the presence of your enemies.

Every dog will have it's day

I recently heard Dr. Apostle Matthew Steven III make this statement and reference this passage of scripture. He said, every dog will have it’s day. Matthew 15:21 Then Jesus went out from there and departed to the region of Tyre and Sidon. 22 And behold, a woman of Canaan came from that region and cried out to Him, saying, “Have mercy on me, O Lord, Son of David! My daughter is severely demon-possessed.”

23 But He answered her not a word.

And His disciples came and urged Him, saying, “Send her away, for she cries out after us.”

24 But He answered and said, “I was not sent except to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.”

25 Then she came and worshiped Him, saying, “Lord, help me!”

26 But He answered and said, “It is not good to take the children’s bread and throw it to the dogs.”

27 And she said, “Yes, Lord, yet even the dogs eat the crumbs which fall from their masters’ table.”

28 Then Jesus answered and said to her, “O woman, great is your faith! Let it be to you as you desire.” And her daughter was healed from that very hour.

Every dog will have it’s day.

Call me a dog.

So many of us have been called to sit at the table the Lord has prepared but we have at times behaved like those outside of the kingdom. We have been content with the crumbs like a dog that have fallen from the masters table. Notice, Jesus didn’t even respond to her because she didn’t have a right to what she was asking Him for. He let her know deliverance was the children’s bread.

Are we behaving like children in the kingdom or are we acting like the dogs that are only eating the crumbs that fall from the master’s table?

Jesus has prepared a whole table for us and wants us to receive all He has for us. Jesus let her know because of her faith her daughter was delivered. Notice that he could not ignore her faith although he ignored her. The kingdom is accessed by faith. I have left the Lord at times and yet received things from Him that seemed unfair that I shouldn’t have received. Some would say, I was behaving as one of the dogs but I still used my faith for my daughter. God honored it just like He did with this woman in the scriptures. He will honor you too. Have faith in God, no matter what state you may find yourself in. Ask, believe and receive it and don’t allow others to persuade you to stop following God like the disciples tried to do to this woman.

God is calling us to more and positioning us at the table. The crumbs had enough power to give her what she needed. Are you eating the bread crumbs in your relationships, in your career, in your finances, etc because you have a measure of success? Every dog will have its’ day. God reigns on the just and the unjust. However, He has an abundance for us at the table as his children and we don’t have to eat the crumbs that fallen from the masters table and settle. We did not settle.

We must understand the importance of submitting our appetite

When Katniss' dad says in the movie, The Hunger games, “As long as you can find yourself, you'll never starve,” what does he mean? He means if she discovers her skills and strengths, she can take care of herself.

The enemy’s great tactic from birth is to devalue us by the way we see ourselves, our parents manage us, and the way others define us. The enemy wants to make sure you don’t ever really know who you are and the value of your birthright. In the light of all the things God has allowed to surface in the life of Shawn Puffy Combs, AKA Diddy and all those connected to this scandal, he was clearly a man that did not submit his appetite and has brought destruction on his soul and his reputation.  Let us all take heed to his great fall and find ourselves in the word and live as wisdom calls us higher.

Let’s go examine the life of Esau with God’s ultrasound.  He is fighting in the womb with his twin brother. It is such a disturbance in Rebakah’s womb, she had to ask God what was really going on. God gives her a picture of what life will look like with the boys before they are born.  

Genesis 25: 22 And the children struggled together within her; and she said, if it be so, why am I thus? And she went to enquire of the Lord.

23 And the Lord said unto her, two nations are in thy womb, and two manner of people shall be separated from thy bowels; and the one people shall be stronger than the other people; and the elder shall serve the younger.

Before Esau and Jacob were even born, God revealed to his mother a key detail regarding the twins. It didn’t matter which one was born first. God already determined the end from the beginning, and he has done the same for us from birth.

Esau came to a place in his life where he had lost focus. He despised his birthright.  He found himself in a place of compromise and was starving. He forgot who he was. He hated his requirements attached to his birthright.

We must understand the importance of submitting our appetite.

Let’s see why.

Genesis 25:29 And Jacob sod pottage: and Esau came from the field, and he was faint:

30 And Esau said to Jacob, feed me, I pray thee, with that same red pottage; for I am faint: therefore, was his name called Edom.

31 And Jacob said, Sell me this day thy birthright.

32 And Esau said, Behold, I am at the point of dying: and what profit shall this birthright do to me?

33 And Jacob said, swear to me this day; and he sware unto him: and he sold his birthright unto Jacob.

34 Then Jacob gave Esau bread and pottage of lentils; and he did eat and drink, and rose up, and went his way: thus, Esau despised his birthright.

Pastor Dharius Daniels said, You have to be careful with who you are around when you are hungry because some people won’t meet your need, they will exploit it.  That’s exactly what Jacob and their mother did to Esau.  Sometimes, its those we trust and are the closest to us that we can’t see them doing us wrong.  Esau thought he was about to die from hunger and couldn’t live without what he wanted in that moment.  What lie has the enemy told you, you can’t live without?

Esau identified more with his surroundings which was Edom than his birthright and who he was as Esau. He became weary in well doing. Have you submitted to your circumstances for a season and forgotten who you are called to be and how valuable you are? What has happened in your life that has brought your soul to the point of desperation like Esau? God is warning us as children not to forfeit portions of our destiny for a moment of pleasure for small portions of our birthright. God has so much for us. The enemy is always out to steal, kill and destroy.

Are you bitter with God for what he has required from you?

He lied to Eve and deceived her and Adam and her were removed from Eden forever. Moses didn’t deal with his anger and ended up never entering the promised land because he hit the rock twice instead of speaking to it. Samson played with Delilah and ended up losing his eyes and dying prematurely. Racheal takes her father’s idols with her and ends up dying prematurely before they return to Bethlehem. David didn’t get to build the temple because of his disobedience. Abraham and Sarah lost hope and created Ishmael while waiting on Isaac out of desperation. In all these men and women’s lives, there was a place in their soul they were starving. They forgot who they were and compromised, costing them a portion of their birthright.

To walk in your calling, we must be willing to submit our appetite to God and this could be naturally, sexually, spiritually, physically, financially, etc. For many people, we have allowed the cares of this life to bring us to places of hunger and some have become faint and compromised in this last season. The enemy wanted to make many believe they would never receive what God promised them. But the devil is a liar.

Some have come under attack in their character and reputation.  The word says to abstain from all appearance of evil and when we don’t, we can give the enemy a foothold that the enemy can cause to become a stronghold.  Pastor Dharius Daniels said, God is more concerned about restoring our souls in this season than he is in restoring our reputation first.  God doesn’t want us to starve but when we don’t understand the value of our birthright and who we are, we will always find ourselves in a place of compromise, like Esau and like Diddy. We must submit our appetite to the Lord.

It’s a new day.  God is strengthening our focus. He is turning the page as we fully embrace who God said we are, as he restores our souls, he is also restoring your image in the hearts and minds of those that are also assigned to you and your destiny. God is calling us to come out from among anything that could hinder his plan and purposes.

 

Proverbs 27:7 The full soul loatheth an honeycomb; but to the hungry soul every bitter thing is sweet.


In the name of The Lord

The Bait of Offense: Guarding Our Words and Our Hearts

In this hour, we as leaders must humble ourselves and remember—we are not greater than our Lord and Savior. Jesus was persecuted, and we will be too. Yet so many in the body of Christ are stumbling because of offense.

Matthew 11:6 says, “And blessed is he, whosoever shall not be offended in Me.”

Offense is one of the enemy’s most effective traps. It divides leaders, weakens churches, and poisons relationships. One of the greatest prophets in the Bible, Elisha, teaches us a sobering lesson about how dangerous offense can become when left unchecked.

Elisha was famous for believing God for a double portion of his master Elijah’s anointing. But we rarely talk about the day Elisha got in his feelings.

Let’s knock on his door and see what happened.

2 Kings 2:23–24 (KJV):

And he went up from thence unto Bethel: and as he was going up, there came forth little children out of the city, and mocked him, and said unto him, “Go up, thou bald head.”

And he turned back, and looked on them, and cursed them in the name of the Lord. And there came forth two she-bears out of the wood, and tare forty and two children of them.

He cursed them—in the name of the Lord.

How many times have we justified our words, our reactions, and our offenses “in the name of the Lord”?

Just two verses earlier, Elisha had spoken healing over barren waters, and the Lord honored his word for good. But when offense entered his heart, his words carried destruction instead. The same mouth that blessed now cursed—and God still honored his word.

This is a wake-up call for us as leaders. What are we saying that’s causing others to be blessed or torn apart? The Lord honors His Word, but He will also hold us accountable for the spirit behind our speech.

Pastors curse members when they leave their churches. Members dishonor leaders in the name of truth. Spouses dishonor their partners. Parents speak negatively about their children. We forget that David refused to touch Saul, even when Saul hunted him with 30,000 men. David honored the anointing, not the man. Even after Saul’s death, David honored his seed.

Where is the fear of the Lord?

David understood that honor was never about Saul—it was about God. The same must be true for us. As the body of Christ, we must guard our hearts from deception and refuse to be baited by offense.

John Bevere said, “Offense is the bait of Satan.” And he was right. The enemy wants us to take that bait—to curse instead of bless, to tear down instead of build, to react instead of reflect.

But God is calling us higher. He’s giving us eagle vision—a panoramic view to expose the schemes of the enemy. He’s going before us to make the crooked places straight and the rough places smooth.

So let us endure hardness as good soldiers. Let us lay down our right to be offended and pick up the cross of Christ.

This battle isn’t ours—it’s the Lord’s.

“Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Thy sight, O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer.” —Psalm 19:14

Spiritual IV Therapy

Naturally, I have been a trainer as a healthcare professional to doctors, nurses and other ancillary staff for years. Certain conditions can cause people to need different types of of intravenous therapy. What is Intravenous (IV) therapy? It is a procedure that delivers fluids, medications, blood products, nutrition, or electrolytes directly into a vein. It's the most common invasive procedure used by medical professionals.

One of the most common trends in our culture has been for people to engage sometimes in reckless behaviors such as drinking. This can cause a need for electrolytes to be replenished and a need for an IV therapy treatment to prevent dehydration.

Well as destructive as excessive drinking can be to the body so it is in the spirit, when we engage in other destructive behaviors against God that affect us spiritually. The word tells us 2 John 3:Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth.

Notice, we see a direct correlation of the prospering of our health connected to the condition of our souls. When we take care of our souls in obedience to God's word, we are also protecting ourselves against health conditions naturally.

The word gives examples after examples of how this looks in our lives on a daily basis. Let’s examine Proverbs 12:4. "An excellent wife is the crown of her husband, but she who brings shame is like rottenness in his bones".

If you are a woman like myself that is seeking the Lord for a mate, I pray not just for myself but for you that we would be an excellent wife that is “the crown” of her husband and not allow us to bring shame to our husbands that is the equivalence of being rottenness in his bones.

Sometimes when our souls need to be restored, we will all need spiritual IV therapy treatment. Every relationship will have storms but the word says love covers a multitude of sins. We need to be women that should submit to our spouses one to another in the fear of the Lord and be able to correct each other privately without shaming them publicly. We need to get wisdom but with all our getting, we need an understanding. We have to know each other by the spirit and not by the flesh. So, as a woman that is preparing to be remarried, I seek God in intercession and cover my future spouse. God’s love always comes to heal and restore our souls. So, if you are in a season that you are getting your soul restored, allow God to heal you and don’t forget the power of spiritual IV therapy that flows as a result of intercession.

“The crown”

You won’t cast your crown, 

and throw it down,

Let others wear it or toss it around,

Like other men that roll their crowns like they roll their dice,

 you won’t be like the dogs that chase the cat, that chase the mice,

You won’t gamble it and take a chance on losing it twice,

But you will wear it godly proud,

You will sing out loud,

That God gave you another chance, 

Another dance,

To get it right,

To keep it tight,

See I am the crown.

 

And you will never leave it alone,

For someone else to claim,

And I won’t be like Lot’s wife that turned into a stone, 

As I take your name. 

We will be inseparable,

Baptized in pleasurable,

Desire. 

With fire. 

as each others Purpose partner,

Waiting to make it to the altar. 

You will never take it for granted,

As We are planted.

you will take your place as King,

As you give me my ring,

Becoming your crown as your wife,

As I become the love of your life. 

one day you will cast your crown at His feet,

with no defeat,

As a gift,

To lift, 

and crown Him as thee eternal King,

As you present me as your good thing. 

We must be willing to swallow

Swallowing the Whole Scroll: Embracing the Sweet and the Bitter

In life, there are times when God hands us things that are difficult to swallow. I remember choking on the reality that yes, I always wanted more children—but I wanted a husband too. We were a package deal. I was married, and my husband was about to leave me. I struggled to accept that once I was a mother before marriage, and now, I had two additional sons and was about to be a single mother again. This was not my fairytale. It wasn’t supposed to end like that.

I had invested so much—fighting for my family, for generations. How could my story end this way? One of my favorite stories in Scripture is when a mother brought her two sons to Jesus before His crucifixion. She asked Him if one could sit on His right and the other on His left in His kingdom. Jesus asked if they were willing to drink the cup He was about to drink. In my words, He was asking: were they willing to swallow the bitterness and suffer as He was about to suffer? Jesus was quick to let her know—they would drink from the cup, but the full weight of it was not theirs. We must be willing to swallow, even when life is bittersweet.

God has a prepared place for each of us. From the time of our births, we wrestle to understand our purpose. Along with that purpose comes a cup—blessings and suffering—that we must be willing to swallow. Ezekiel’s assignment illustrates this truth. In Ezekiel 3:1-4, God commanded him to eat the scroll:

“Son of man, eat that which you find; eat this roll, and go speak to the house of Israel… Then did I eat it; and it was in my mouth as honey for sweetness… Go, get thee unto the house of Israel, and speak with my words unto them.”

Notice how sweet the assignment began—like honey. Some of our experiences in life start sweet. The relationship you’ve been praying for begins full of hope. A business idea blossoms. A child finally comes after years of struggle. It is sweet. But sometimes, what began sweet turns bitter. A partner disappoints. The business becomes a burden. A child struggles with choices or pain.

We must be willing to swallow the whole scroll—to remain faithful to God’s assignment even when it becomes bitter. Ezekiel was warned that the people would be rebellious, that they would not listen, yet he had to obey. Assignments are rarely easy. Attacks and opposition are inevitable. But God strengthens us to withstand them.

By verse 14, what began sweet had become bitter:

“So the spirit lifted me up, and took me away, and I went in bitterness, in the heat of my spirit; but the hand of the Lord was strong upon me.”

Even when assignments feel bitter, God is with us. From the prophetic words spoken over me from age 18 to now at 52, many blessings were sweet to my soul, yet their fulfillment required swallowing bitter things. God wants us to know: to obey Him fully, we must swallow the whole scroll.

Our assignments may be both sweet and bitter, but if we hope to reign with Jesus, we must also be willing to suffer with Him. Be of good cheer. Jesus has already overcome the world. Like Ezekiel, we are called to warn the wicked—not for our glory, but so their blood is not on our hands. When we accept our assignment, eat the scroll, and obey, we save our own souls and fulfill God’s plan.

LIVE

Jesus didn’t just come to earth to deliver us. He came that we would have life and life more abundantly. He wants us to: LIVE. The word says in Ezekiel 16:6 And when I passed by you, and saw you polluted in your own blood, I said unto you when you was in your blood, Live; yea, I said to you when you was in your blood, Live.

There was a time in my life that I didn’t love me. As a child I grew up corrected in rejection, on top of the fact that I was the fourth and last child of my parents. They had been divorced, remarried, and divorced again shortly after my birth. My mom let me know as far as I can remember that she didn’t want any more children. So, I felt like a child that was nursed by rejection and cradled by the hand of devastation from the womb.

So, one of the first things the Lord began to do when I entered a personal relationship with him at 17 years old, was he let me know how special I was to him. I grew up believing that God had too many children and he couldn’t love me individually. God began to correct me, but it never looked like the correction I received growing up. God wants to reparent some of you and deliver you, but he draws us with loving kindness and his goodness. He began to give me prophetic word after prophetic word. He was giving me hope and a future to pull me out of those places of struggle and hopelessness so I would have something to fight for. He was changing me by loving me and revealing to me that he had a plan for me before I ever committed any wrongs. He wants you to know the same is true for your lives and family and friends.

Many know how I was a scorned and forsaken wife but years before I met my late ex-husband, I was the villain in a different story before I became a victim. I remember at 22, my second relationship, I backslid, and I got in an adulterous affair with a professor at college. I felt justified because he was separated from his estranged wife for five years at that time. He shared that she didn’t want to fix it, and she was in another relationship as well. I think one of the greatest allures was how open he was with me on the campus, with his parents, his sister was a beautician and did my hair all the time, their nine-year-old son, friends and even his identical twin. We talked about marriage and having children together and him getting a divorce finally. I had been a secret since my teen years being in a relationship with a man that was 21 years older than me and now, I had someone that showed me open affection. I didn’t feel like it was a secret at all.

We were so deceived that we would even go to church together at times. If you are in an adulterous relationship, I pray God delivers you and you allow him to heal and deliver you. I pray God heals that broken marriage and he gives you a new beginning. Just because a person is separated, does not give you the right to date or be in a relationship with them spiritually. When my ex-late husband separated from me, I fasted, interceded, and contended for my marriage for three years. I was infuriated, knowing we were still married, and he was now even more openly cheating.

This relationship was approaching eleven months, and the Lord began to challenge me. I told him I was going out of state to go to a conference to get away so I could ask God should I let him go. He begged me not to go. How deceived was I? I didn’t need to get away to get that answer. Adultery is a sin. I was walking in deception like some of you. God wants to set you free.

I went. I received one of the greatest prophetic words of my life that I included in my memoir, Overcoming the Shipwrecks of Life on Broken pieces. Several prophets told me God wanted me to know I was so special to him prior to this conference from seventeen until this time. At that point, I was irritated because I wanted to know what was so special about me. As a little girl, I longed to have one person that I was special to, and no one could take my place in their heart. As I stood in front of this prolific prophetic team leader, the leader began to laugh aloud. I was wondering what was wrong with her. I should have been nervous maybe because of my current situation but I wasn’t.

The first thing she told me was the Lord wanted me to know why I was so special to HIM. She told me because when the enemy started battling me around, I always came running to God. She never once dealt with or exposed the sin I was in. The Lord instead told me about how significant I was to his purposes, my family, and how my yes, would deliver not only me but many in my family, their friends, and their friends’ friends. What a promise!

I came back and called him. He asked me what the Lord told me regarding us. I told him I had to let him go. He then told me that was good because his wife was 5 months pregnant, in the hospital, and had delivered and the baby died. God closed that door for me just like that and had given me new vision and hope through these prophetic promises. After the brokenness of my marriage, I went back into an adulterous situation with my daughters father, as I shared. This was a similar situation with his wife being estranged. However, when I became pregnant, I cried out and remembered all I labored for and all God promised me. I allowed God to turn me completely. I know God as a deliverer and a keeper. I am so grateful he has kept me these last 7.5 years in my abstinent journey. I pray God brings you into a new season of vision and purpose and delivers you like he did me.

I shared my testimony so others will know, God is not mad at you. He is madly in love with you and wants to set you free. Repent, forgive yourself, turn away from your ways, and allow God to heal you and those involved. He has so much for you and your generations and those you have been called too. God has called you to LIVE.

 Proverbs 24:16 For a just man falls seven times and rises again: But the wicked shall fall into mischief.

 

The Time Traveler's wife

Love transcends dimensions and time. It is stronger than death. I love the movie, The Time Traveler’s wife. The main actress Clare has been in love with Henry her entire life. I feel like I have loved you from eternity. He randomly visits and picnics with her as a little girl. Henry has a rare genetic disorder that causes him to time travel which is out of his control. I know there have been situations that caused us to be delayed. Nevertheless, she believes they are destined to be together. I believe we are destined to be together.

Despite the unfortunate circumstances that keeps him separated from her in time, there love for one another grows deeper and stronger. It transcends time. Our love is rooted in God. We have not allowed anything to separate us. Our kingdom purposes are bigger than the obstacles the enemies has tried to use to abort our assignment. She isn’t afraid to love him. I am not afraid to love you. Love conquers all and endures all.

I’ve been time traveling since 1992 in intercession. God started taking me back. Specially in 2000, I began to weep for myself as a little girl and Jesus would weep with me. It was in those moments that I was crushed the most. I didn’t think anyone loved me as a child. The visits got more and more frequent. It took some years before I was able to stop revisiting little Marie. I knew I was healed when I didn’t see her weeping anymore.

I didn’t realize how important it was in that season to get healed, but the storms were coming and if I was still crying when it was time to fight, I would have lost the battle. This time I was going to have to start running because my journey ahead for me to travel was going to take me back to slavery and into our future and generations to come. The enemy was after everything I loved and everything God promised them and us.

See, the way, I learned to run faster out of the reach of the enemy was by overcoming evil with good. Every time I forgave, I could get further into my future. Every time I came to weep about my ancestors, I was bringing God the ashes so I could exchange them for his beauty. It became personal, and I began to cry for restoration for not just my generations but all the way back to my slave ancestors. God was breaking my heart for what broke His heart while they were alive. I wanted my love story to be different. I wanted my generations to be free and everyone coming after me. The longer I stayed in a place of worship and sacrifice, allowing God to purify my heart, the further I could see. My panoramic view of both the past and future began to bring my life into supernatural focus. I found myself soaring above the storms like an eagle. King David said, by God he ran through troops and leaped over walls. I had to get through some generational troops that were strongholds, and I had to become stronger than the strongholds. I didn’t realize at that time I would run right into you.

I prayed for you. I cried for you. We are finally here.

Forever,

The Time Traveler’s wife.

Get your weight up

Get Your Weight Up

You can have the most developed muscles in the world and still be weak in one area—your spirit. You can look like the Incredible Hulk on the outside and still be spiritually underdeveloped on the inside. I’ve learned that physical strength means nothing if your spiritual muscles can’t carry the weight of your assignment.

Both of us have the gift of faith. We’ve believed God against all odds, and in many ways, we are the manifestation of each other’s prayers. But this season—this divine training ground—has required us to get our weight up again. God has been conditioning us to carry more, not in our bodies, but in our spirits.

Years ago, two handsome, buff men pursued me. To most, they would’ve been “the total package.” Muscles, confidence, charm. But when they flexed and asked if I liked strong men, I smiled—because physical strength is impressive, but it doesn’t move me like spiritual strength does. A man can’t lead me if he can’t lift in the spirit.

Recently, I heard Michael Bethany say, “People aren’t afraid of greatness—they’re afraid of the weight that comes with it.” That hit me hard. Because greatness carries a weight. And for me, those weights have been heavy. But when I looked back, I saw how meticulous God was—chiseling me, shaping me, and stretching me. I didn’t realize how massive the legacy was that He was calling me to recover. The process wasn’t punishment—it was preparation.

One of the hardest seasons of my life was during my previous marriage. When the enemy rushed into my home, my late ex-husband didn’t have the spiritual muscles to resist him. He was called to be a heavyweight in God, but he never developed the endurance. That pain taught me something: I was called to be a heavyweight in God too—and I had to build the strength to carry the weight of what he dropped.

We get knocked down sometimes, but it doesn’t mean the fight is over. Romans 8:18 says, “For I reckon that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory which shall be revealed in us.” Glory is heavy—but when you learn to stand under the pressure of pain, you learn to carry the weight of glory.

Like Moses, I asked to see God’s glory. And like Moses, God called me to the mountain—to a tight place in the cleft of the rock where I had to be hidden and refined. That place of consecration was painful. I wasn’t safe on the ground; I had to go higher. Every blow, every tear, every lonely night was training. I was building endurance.

It was like boxing training. A boxer doesn’t just build muscle; he builds muscular endurance to last twelve rounds. That’s what God was doing—training me to last through the fight of my life. These battles weren’t random; they were divinely orchestrated to break generational strongholds and build spiritual stamina.

There were nights I crawled, days I ran, and seasons I just stood still—but I kept moving. Because this fight was fixed. God had already declared victory.

I’ll never forget one night, my ex-husband came home after staying out again. I looked at him and said, “God called us to the multitudes. You’re responsible for four souls. If we’re faithful over little, He’ll make us ruler over much.” He broke down crying and said, “Those weights are too great.” I didn’t realize then that God was preparing me to carry what he could not.

Even after the divorce and his passing, God’s grace carried me through. He built my endurance through suffering so I could stand in glory. Sarah Jakes Roberts said it best—“Suffering has an intersection called glory.”

And now, I can say with confidence: God got His glory. We got our weight up. And we will finish strong.

“Thou therefore endure hardness, as a good soldier of Jesus Christ.” — 2 Timothy 2:3

Poetic Reflection: “One of a Kind”

You make me put on boxing gloves,

To come to blows explaining a love

Above all loves—

I fight on sight,

Trying to describe what I’ve never seen or heard.

When God put you back on that potter’s wheel,

It wasn’t just to heal—

It was so you could feel.

He kept you longer to make you stronger,

Deeper,

A keeper.

He increased your capacity, steepened your climb,

Because you’re a special edition—one of a kind.

He broke the mold, hid His wisdom inside,

And when He finished, He rested—

Because He made one of His best.

And heaven whispered the verdict:

It was good.