Knock, knock, who’s there?

Apostle Dr. Matthew Stevenson, III said, the worse place to be is in your feelings, when your future comes knocking at your door. This is exactly where Naaman was. Let’s go knock on his door.

Knock, knock, who’s there?

Naaman was angry and offended. He was a man that was living between several dualities. Let’s see how the scripture describes it in the word.

2 Kings 5 Now Naaman, captain of the host of the king of Syria, was a great man with his master, and honorable, because by him the Lord had given deliverance unto Syria: he was also a mighty man in valor, but he was a leper.

He was counted honorable with his own master and honorable before the Lord. He also was a mighty man and a leper. Have you ever had to live between the dualities of two things? You are pleasing God but also have a private struggle? You have degrees and are qualified but can’t get a job. You are a successful business entrepreneur but haven’t been successful in a relationship? You know God has called you into full time ministry, but you are also having to work a full-time job to support yourself. You have been given great prophetic words of all God is going to do but you are taking care of your children as a single mother trying to figure out how you will accomplish everything God promised. You have a list of preferences you want in a mate, but you also feel like God has told you who your mate is and it’s not the same. I want to encourage you to obey God’s instructions and don’t be offended and angry because your answer didn’t come the way you expected it too.

Perhaps, you are in the position of the little slave girl.

So, God allowed a little slave girl to be taken captive to serve Naaman’s wife. Does God have you in a humble situation that could have you caught up in your feelings when your future comes knocking?

Knock, knock, who’s there?

She didn’t miss her opportunity to share the word of the Lord to the King. This little slave girl’s name is not even mentioned in the bible nor does it even document that he rewarded her. However, when her future came knocking at her door she answered correctly. She wasn’t just taken captive and positioned to simply serve his wife. Has God given you an opportunity to help someone else get their breakthrough but because you have not been rewarded or acknowledged, you have chosen to remain in your feelings to withhold the power you have to change their life? Can God trust you with that platform to connect others and they don’t mention or tag you and give you the credit and you still be okay releasing the information they need?

Even after the little slave girl gave him the word of the Lord, he had his servant take a letter and payment requesting his healing to the King not to see Elisha. Are you still looking to someone else for your healing when God has already given you, his instructions? So, God goes out his way after Elisha hears that the King has rent his clothes and can’t fulfill Naaman’s request to heal him and tells him to see him.

Naaman now has received a personal invitation from Elisha to come. God is going to go out of his way even in your disobedience to grant your request. Let’s now see how Naaman was found in his feelings when his future came knocking at his door. Has God sent your answer, but the way you thought God would answer is different from the way you envisioned it?

Naaman asked why couldn’t he have several other different options to dip in other than the Jordan river. Stop treating your destiny like it is optional and agree with God when He has made the decision for you. Receive your healing. Another divining moment in my previous marriage was when my ex-late husband told me that pride took him and slammed him to his face and don’t be like him. When men feel unappreciated or devalued in their position, they justify their vice and for most that is another woman. Naaman was the King and he expected Elisha to entreat him a certain way. When he didn’t, he was lifted up in pride and went away in his feelings, angry and offended. How many mighty men of valor have fallen in their relationships as the King of their homes because they felt unappreciated and wanted another option than the one God gave them because they felt devalued. Thank God for the people that Naaman had around him to challenge him to obey the word of the Lord to submit.

2 Kings 5: 9 So Naaman came with his horses and with his chariot and stood at the door of the house of Elisha.

10 And Elisha sent a messenger unto him, saying, Go and wash in Jordan seven times, and thy flesh shall come again to thee, and thou shalt be clean.

11 But Naaman was wroth, and went away, and said, Behold, I thought, He will surely come out to me, and stand, and call on the name of the Lord his God, and strike his hand over the place, and recover the leper.

12 Are not Abana and Pharpar, rivers of Damascus, better than all the waters of Israel? may I not wash in them, and be clean? So, he turned and went away in a rage.

13 And his servants came near, and spake unto him, and said, my father, if the prophet had bid thee do some great thing, wouldest thou not have done it? how much rather than, when he saith to thee, Wash, and be clean?

14 Then went he down, and dipped himself seven times in Jordan, according to the saying of the man of God: and his flesh came again like unto the flesh of a little child, and he was clean.

Knock, knock who’s there?

It’s your restoration. It’s time to dip and humble yourself to receive all God has for you so you can be made whole. Continue to allow God to challenge you in your perspectives in this season and come out of your feelings. Embrace those God has placed around you that are really for you and not around you to drain your strength. God is bringing you into the next version of yourself as the King or Queen you are like he did for King Naaman. This next version of you will restore you back to that moment the enemy first broke you. You made me feel like I was fifteen again. He doesn’t want you to live any longer conflicted between two dualities of your public victory and private struggle. He has sent the answer to your healing.

We are heaven's contingency plan

In the earth, there are many types of emergencies—but wise companies, cities, and nations have something called a contingency plan. It’s a strategy for how to respond when crisis hits. When Hurricane Beryl struck, my service provider wasn’t ready. Power was out for days. The governor demanded a plan because too many people suffered unnecessarily.

When we fail to prepare, not only do we suffer, but so does everyone connected to us. The same is true spiritually. Families are God’s first line of defense—His divine contingency plan in the earth. But today, that structure is under attack. The world has redefined family. According to recent data, medication abortions made up 63% of all abortions in 2023. Children are in foster care by the millions. The government allows confusion over gender and identity when God clearly said, “Male and female created He them.”

This is a 911 call. The family is in a state of emergency.

But here’s the hope: we were built for this moment. You have been in training your entire life for this season. The pain you’ve endured wasn’t wasted—it was preparation. Like Samson, you may have faced seasons of blindness, betrayal, or distraction, but God is about to use your story as part of heaven’s emergency response.

I remember years ago receiving a prophecy that changed my life. Apostle Scott Washington looked at me and said, “God has called you to be an ambassador—a special representative of His grace and glory.” That word marked me. And now, I see it wasn’t just for me—it’s for you too.

Why did God create you? You weren’t born just because two people came together. You were sent—on divine assignment. You are part of heaven’s contingency plan for an emergency on earth.

Look at Samson’s story in Judges 13. Israel was in rebellion, and God allowed their enemies to oppress them. Then, in His perfect timing, He sent Samson. Samson’s birth wasn’t random—it was strategic. Heaven doesn’t send deliverers until the earth is in need of deliverance.

There is an emergency you were born to solve. That’s why the enemy has tried so hard to distract, discredit, and delay you. But even now, your strength is growing back. God is about to avenge you of every loss, just as He did for Samson.

Ten years ago, I wept before God asking, “What was the love You and I shared in eternity?” I wanted to know because the Word says, “Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you.” That means our spiritual umbilical cords have never been cut. You’ve been connected to heaven all along. Every pain, every disappointment, every detour was designed to point you back to divine intimacy.

Your requirements—your boundaries, your purpose—are revealed through intimacy with God. It’s time to step fully into who He says you are. No more playing with the enemy. No more spiritual riddles. No more shaking yourself and returning to old cycles.

Heaven is activating you. You are not forgotten. You are not disqualified. You are anointed for this very moment in history.

Like Samson, your greatest victory will come when you surrender completely. You’ll destroy more of your enemies in your death to self than you ever did in your strength.

The earth is in an emergency—and you are heaven’s contingency plan.

It’s time to rise.

If you say so

I recently listened to a message by Bishop T.D. Jakes called, The Theology of Quietness. This message was such a blessing to me and so divinely timely for my life. Let us read the scripture reference to expound on what I would like to share, in hopes that it will bless you as well.

Matthew 27:11 Meanwhile Jesus stood before the governor, and the governor asked him, “Are you the king of the Jews?”

“You have said so,” Jesus replied. Jesus was saying, if you say so.

When I heard Bishop Jakes say this, I immediately laughed so hard. The Lord was really mocking the devil in his own way. We will laugh like Sarah did. He wasn’t trying to clap back at him like we do in our comments to the crowd, our families and friends when they challenge our identity. Nothing he said would have changed a thing because Jesus agreed through silence with his fathers’ plan. They thought they were in control, and He let them think they were until he got to the cross and decided to address the crowds from their comments.

I recently had a series of events that happened in my life over the last few months. After an event I immediately felt a shift in my spirit by God. I heard the Lord tell me my strength would be in his quietness and confidence. I immediately withdrew closer to God and laid everything on the altar I was believing God for like Abraham did with Isaac. This was my promise. This wasn’t my first time up this mountain. However, the first time I scooted up that mountain and barely made it. This wasn’t my first time at this altar but my response and ability to release what I loved most was quicker.

I went running.

I finally realized it wasn’t just about you passing your test. My faith was on trial too. My spirit without my permission became quieter. The music stopped playing but I could still see us. I was on pause waiting for you to push play. I knew if it was going to happen, God was going to have to do it. I had an if you say so in my spirit. I repositioned myself and fasted and prayed. We both hurt each other that time. I knew God would have the final say. I knew what God said to me. I told you not to allow the silence to alarm you. I knew it was loud although I was still talking. My job was to stand like Jesus did in front of Pilate. Our vulnerabilities have connected our hearts and has given us a safe place to build legacy.

Can you stand in the face of your accusers and not answer a word? I was persecuted in this season. I have lost some friends. Some have withdrawn and are watching from afar off. I have been questioned if I am delusional, deceived and questioned if I was downright crazy. I have been lied on just like Jesus was and even told I was operating out of witchcraft. My motives have even been cross examined. I have stuck to my story. Jesus knew who he was and where he was going and so do I.

So many are being moved by the crowd and the noise of others in the comments. Jesus wasn’t moved by the crowd and didn’t try to get out of being crucified. Sometimes you will be crucified in the comments, and you can’t clap back. You will have to say like Jesus did, if you say so. He understood that what he was experiencing was leading him to his cross. He knew it was necessary. He was exactly where he needed to be. You are exactly where you need to be in God now.

I know who I am. I understood the assignment, but I had been offered up like Jesus when he stood in front of Pilate. God wanted my complete surrender and faith in his word and not yours so I would be rooted in God in our foundation. Whether they acknowledged him as King or not, He was. Whether I was acknowledged who God said I was or not at that time, I was.

God wants you to know that you know what he has for you to do and no matter what you face remain confident in the front of your accusers. The enemy is the accuser of the brethren. Jesus was standing as the son of man but was about to be glorified as the King of Kings. He did come to set up his kingdom which was true but that version of Him had to die so he could be crowned King. Sometimes we must agree with our adversaries. We will be prisoners to none.

Jesus our Lord and Savior’s identity was constantly under attack. He was questioned over and over by the crowd who he really was. Why do we not think others close to us and far off will not question us? Sometimes what they are saying may have some truth to it. The enemy is not fighting you over where you are. He is trying to keep you from your future. God has been waiting for generations for us to come into complete alignment with him like Jesus so He can resurrect you. Get ready you are about to be crowned King and Queen.

Dating Gods way

It was time to collect the data

 One of the greatest things I learned this past year is that dating is, at its core, data collection. It’s about observing, discerning, and learning what aligns with God’s plan for your life. To illustrate this, we can look at the life of Rebekah. She was about to experience what I like to call “divinely orchestrated dating”—a God-led encounter that required her to be in the right place at the right time. She wasn’t wandering aimlessly in the so-called “dating streets.” She was where God could find her, doing what she was supposed to be doing, and ready to respond without hesitation.

Genesis 24 paints a vivid picture. Abraham didn’t try to orchestrate Isaac’s marriage himself. He trusted God to direct the steps. He sent his servant to find a wife for Isaac, relying entirely on God’s guidance. The servant prayed for a clear sign: the woman who offered him and his camels water would be the one. Rebekah’s response demonstrated her willingness, her humility, and her pure intentions—qualities that God used as data to confirm she was the right one.

This story reminds us that love and marriage are not about superficial traits, social status, or material gain. Rebekah’s worth wasn’t measured by what she could provide for herself or what she looked like. It was measured by her heart, her character, and her readiness to walk in God’s plan. She was willing to leave her comfort zone, travel far from home, and trust in God’s orchestration. She submitted without hesitation, showing the servant—and ultimately God—that she was ready to partner in a covenantal relationship.

Today, many people grow bitter because they depend on the world’s version of love instead of God’s guidance. They wait for the perfect height, the six-pack, the six-figure salary, or the ideal Instagram-worthy display of affection. But God’s standard is higher—it’s about alignment, purpose, and spiritual compatibility. He wants us to recognize the qualities that matter for a lasting, God-centered relationship: integrity, faithfulness, and the willingness to grow together in spiritual purpose.

The question we must ask ourselves is this: Are we ready to trust God as our Father? Are we willing to receive the person He has prepared for us, even if it challenges our comfort or expectations? Rebekah’s story teaches us that the right person will align with God’s generational plan for our lives. They may not be perfect by worldly standards, but they will be perfect for you in divine timing.

When God leads, timing is precise. The one He has prepared will come. The camels—the blessings, the encounters, the moments that reveal His favor—are already on the way. But we must be ready, humble, and willing to walk in obedience. We must prioritize character, faith, and purity over superficial desires. The right person won’t just make you smile; they will stimulate your mind, elevate your spirit, and partner with you to fulfill your God-given assignment.

Ultimately, dating God’s way is about preparation, discernment, and trust. It’s about collecting the right data—observing character, willingness, and alignment with God’s purpose. It’s about saying yes to His plan, even when it requires faith and sacrifice. Just like Rebekah, we must be willing to submit, step out in obedience, and trust that God is orchestrating a love story that surpasses anything we could imagine.

Our first date,

He wasn’t a minute late. 

And if I had one word to describe it, 

It would  be “great.”

He went out his way to travel miles, 

through years of tears to give me those smiles,

He laid out hours,

to get those powers,

In worship. 

To give me those moments that were as beautiful as flowers.

Our dates were expensive because of the price he had to pay,

That lead to the toll on the road that brought him my way,

To be able to lift me with no hands,

To survive shipwrecks and quicksand’s,

He had to overcome heartbreaks and mistakes,

survive landmines and Great Lakes,

Of pain.

He worked out in loves gym to build those muscles to flex,

to bench press me to places of intimacy to honor me with no sex,

He took me to a factory that made me cheese,

Kept my heart and mind at ease, 

Willing to wait to celebrate to have his cake,

fighting with sleep to keep dreaming and stay awake. 

Our first date, 

he didn’t hesitate.

To open the door,

Dropping hearts, leaving me longing for more,

We went straight to the moon, 

 As we levitated under the stars,

Hanging on each other’s words like dangling from monkey bars.

Suspended in the air, defying laws of logic and gravity, 

Becoming sedated, 

Intoxicated, 

numbing each other from our past reality,

With love.

He made me forget every moment I wanted to quit,

Made me want to grind harder with passion and grit. 

He made me grateful for every moment I was ever rejected,

and redirected,

That led me to him,

and I am eternally indebted to the God that chose 

me and not them. 

Get ready to run your race

Get Ready, set, go!

Elijah made history. He was about to do something that had never been done — on several levels. He was getting ready to run his greatest race. But before he could run, he had to believe that God would show up for him.

Elijah stood face-to-face with 400 false prophets who claimed to speak for God. Jezebel had already killed many of God’s true prophets, but Elijah didn’t flinch. He had the audacity to believe that the God who answers by fire would show Himself strong — and He did.

🔥 God consumed Elijah’s sacrifice, proving once again that He alone is the true and living God.

But Elijah’s victory was about more than fire — it was about faith. It was about revealing a dimension of God’s character that no one else had seen before.

So, I ask you:

What part of God’s character has He predestined you to reveal to the world to destroy the lie of the enemy?

Maybe you’re called to restore families and turn the hearts of fathers back to their children.

Maybe you’re called to outlive the lie that marriage doesn’t work anymore.

Maybe you’re called to show that it’s never too late to give birth — to a child, a dream, or a purpose.

Maybe your mission is to ignite hope in the hearts of women who no longer believe real love still exists.

Whatever it is, God is about to use your life to prove His truth.

Elijah’s story reminds us that God often asks for our most precious sacrifice. Elijah poured water — their most valuable resource after a three-year drought — onto the altar. To some, it looked foolish. But to God, it was faith.

You might be in a season where God is asking you to give Him what you need most — your time, your trust, your control, your comfort. But He’s not trying to take from you. He’s trying to reveal Himself to you as the God who answers by fire.

It might look like you’ve wasted time, love, or effort, but nothing you’ve given was in vain.

Even after his great victory, Elijah was threatened by Jezebel and ran to hide in fear. Yet, God still protected his life. You might be in a cave right now — tired, discouraged, or questioning your calling — but don’t give up. God is still with you. He’s just repositioning you for the next leg of your race.

Elijah sent his servant back seven times to look for the rain. Maybe you’ve been waiting 7 days, 7 months, or 7 years — but hear me: the rain is coming. 🌧️

Elijah had to gird up his loins — to prepare his mind, strengthen his heart, and focus his spirit — before he could run. And when the rain came, he outran Ahab’s chariot. The hand of the Lord was on him.

That’s what God is doing for you. He’s been building your endurance. You’re about to outrun every lie, every delay, every disappointment.

Just like Sha’Carri Richardson. Three years ago, she was disqualified from the Olympics because of one mistake. But she came back stronger, faster, and more determined — and she won.

I know what that feels like. Years ago, I was given a platform to share my testimony — even invited by The 700 Club. But life hit hard. My home was in chaos, my children were rebelling, and I made choices that cost me years of momentum. Like Sha’Carri, I thought I was ready — until I wasn’t.

But here’s the beauty of grace: God doesn’t cancel your calling because of your mistakes.

This year, just like Sha’Carri, I’m back. I’m running again. And this time, I’m running with endurance, wisdom, and fire.

God is giving us another chance — another race. Generations have waited for this moment. Some have dropped the baton, but now it’s in our hands.

We will run.

We will finish.

We will win.

🔥 Elijah won.

🔥 Sha’Carri won.

🔥 I win.

🔥 You win.

🔥 We win — and everything connected to us will win too.

Get ready to run your race.

We’re about to make history.

Choosing abstinence

Many have asked in these dating streets, “Does body count matter?” For me, it always has. Not because I’m trying to measure someone’s worth, but because I want to honor God, myself, and my future spouse. Truthfully, I never even thought about how many women my future husband may have been with. What matters to me is him living in a way that pleases God. I pray he is free from ungodly soul ties.

In January 2021, God showed me that the man He has for me would separate himself from anything that could jeopardize our love. That gave me a supernatural confidence through prayer. I know the version of us that will emerge after our resurrection—like Lazarus—will be one no one has ever experienced before. When God brings something back to life, it never returns the same.

My journey toward abstinence started over seven years ago. It wasn’t easy, but it became sacred. Growing up, no one ever told me my virginity was special, but I just knew it intuitively. I wanted to wait for marriage. But at fifteen, I made a decision based on a promise—a promise that I now realize came from a broken place. I believed an older man when he said he would marry me when I turned eighteen. Instead, I became a vulnerable girl trying to make sense of adult pain.

That relationship left deep scars: a pregnancy that ended in abortion, another that ended in abandonment, and years of silence. Later, marriage, divorce, grief, and the complicated love that led me to become a runaway bride—all of it shaped my story. When I allowed that same man back into my life years later, I thought I was choosing redemption, but I was really choosing familiarity. I was still trying to preserve something I thought I had lost.

Body count mattered to me because I didn’t want to keep adding to my brokenness. It wasn’t about shame—it was about value. I had been through too much to give away another piece of myself outside of God’s will. I wanted wholeness.

Then came the birth of my daughter—a pregnancy that wasn’t planned, but divinely purposed. Her father passed away shortly after her second birthday, but God used her birth to awaken something in me. I remember crying out to the Lord, vowing never to dishonor myself again. God took my pain and made it prophetic. What the enemy meant as a reminder of my fall from grace, God turned into a reminder of His promise of restoration.

Now, abstinence for me is not just a choice—it’s worship. It’s God restoring my spiritual virginity and preparing me for the husband He promised. Every time I was rejected, God was actually protecting me. Every delay was divine preservation.

I believe in divine alignment and restoration. I believe God is raising up men and women who will honor Him and each other in purity and purpose. My story isn’t about perfection—it’s about redemption.

To anyone struggling to wait, I get it. It’s hard. But God can keep you even when you don’t want to be kept. And when He brings you your purpose partner, it will be worth every tear, every lonely night, and every “no” you had to say.

💫 2 Corinthians 5:17 – Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

Never

You never kissed my lips,

Never took your hands and pulled me close by my hips,

But you’ve held my heart in your hands,

Whispered in my ear as I ease dropped in heavens grandstands.

Never held my breast, 

But you laid your head on my chest,

When you listened for my heartbeat, 

while you sat at his feet.

Never saw me undressed,

Never caressed,

My body.

but you got the peep hole,

 to my soul,

Lingered in chambers of my heart waiting for you to explore,

In places your hands can never reach but I can’t ignore.

Never laid down next to me in bed,

But you live in my head,

completely unpacked,

and unwrapped,

as my prize,

in my 5th floor high rise.

Occupying residence,

with evidence,'

by faith,

in my future life,

I am your wife.

Never tasted,

But got me wasted,

Never between my thighs,

But reminiscing on my highs,

Never picked up a phone to Facetime,

to tell me you’re all mine,

But you stay in my face all the time online,

Loving you out loud,

waiting and still proud. 

I wept

He Collects Every Tear

The Father knew when He created humanity that there would come a time, a space, a day, and a place where we would be wounded — wounded beyond our intellect and comprehension, unable to articulate the pain of our experiences. God knew there would be moments when words would fail us, so He gave us tears.

So, I wept.

Tears have a language all their own — one that heaven understands perfectly. They are transcribed in the corridors of eternity. That’s how sacred they are. King David shared this mystery in Psalm 56:8 (NLT):

“You keep track of all my sorrows.

You have collected all my tears in Your bottle.

You have recorded each one in Your book.”

Think about that. Every tear you’ve cried has been documented in heaven — every sorrow, every silent ache, every whisper too painful to speak.

When words fail you, weep.

Open your heart to His Spirit and let Him begin the healing work that only He can do.

The Word tells us in Proverbs 18:14 (NKJV):

“The spirit of a man will sustain him in sickness,

But who can bear a broken spirit?”

In His divine wisdom, God designed our spirits to carry the weight of physical affliction — but not a broken heart. A broken spirit is too heavy for us to bear alone. And how is our spirit broken? Scripture tells us, “By sorrow of the heart the spirit is broken.”

So I ask you — what, or who, has broken your heart?

Jesus said He is near to the brokenhearted and saves those crushed in spirit. I know that place well. I was so brokenhearted that I no longer wanted to live when my husband decided our marriage was over. I loved him deeply, but God was about to teach me how to love him like He loved him.

I wasn’t weeping over what we had — I was weeping over what we didn’t have, what I longed for, not just for myself but for my family and generations to come.

Maybe you’re in a broken marriage right now and ready to give up. I was there. I knew about hell — I had read the books — and I was ready to end it all. But God interrupted my plans. He challenged me to lay my life down for someone who had wounded me deeply, because there is no greater love than this: that a man lay down his life for his friends.

He wanted me to understand His heart — how He loves us even in our sin, how He pursues one lost soul, how His love covers a multitude of sins. He was teaching me that real love doesn’t walk away; it endures, it forgives, it transforms.

This was my cross — the place He chose for me to die to myself, to learn His kind of love.

In my weakness, His strength was made perfect. In my furnace of affliction, He was branding me with His love.

When my marriage ended in divorce, I reminded the Lord of every sacrifice — every fast, every tear, every offering, every day I stood believing for restoration. And yet, all I could do was weep some more.

Years later, just two days before my ex-husband passed away, on August 19, 2012, the Spirit of God fell upon me in church. I wept uncontrollably, not knowing he was in the hospital or that his lungs had failed. I could only pray, “You promised, God. You promised.”

Two days later, I received the call that he was gone. It didn’t end the way I imagined, but God reminded me that He had honored my sacrifice — not by saving a marriage, but by saving a soul.

It was bigger than my marriage. It was about my ministry.

I used to say, “I can’t wait to read the books in heaven — the ones written from all my years of weeping for a love that was never mine to keep, but was meant to redeem generations after me.”

And now, God is letting me read those pages right here on earth.

He didn’t make me wait for heaven — He’s revealing my love story now.

So I say to you: give Him your tears.

Let Him finish the story. Don’t ever give up on what God has promised you.

Your tears are not in vain.

There is coming a day when He will wipe every tear from your eyes and give you a harvest of joy.

I wept

To find words, I'd have to go to God’s library of knowledge, 

Take a trip through the universe and come back from heaven’s college,

Because earthly words failed me from the English language,

as I languished,

and anguished,

to adequately translate my tears.

So, I wept. 

For a love,

that could only come from above,

while the angels collected,

redirected and protected your life,

while God was making me a wife.

I wept from a place of intimacy where we shared secrets that were concealed,

Before we were placed in our mothers' wombs,

Longing to be revealed, 

as i was being healed.

God knew from the day of our ordination and conception,

at the point of inception, 

we would connect,

Chosen before time as two of His elect, 

I wept for a love that we shared in eternity before time and space,

I wept for the day we would come face to face,

I wept for the moment I would feel your embrace,

I wept while God wrote our story, 

Making us special representatives of his grace and his glory.

I wept as deep called unto deep,

So, you would recognize me when God woke you from your sleep, 

and told you I was yours to keep. 

I wept for the day you would say I do,

knowing God did not run out of ink,

because we didn’t run out of tears,

while he prepared us for the day we would link,

while waiting through the years,

For the day your spirit would join with me,

from eternity,

For the day, you would remember I already loved you. 

The path to the yellow brick road

The Yellow Brick Road: Finding Our Way Back Home”

(Approx. 600 words in your authentic voice)

I love how God often uses movies to articulate prophetic messages to me. One of those timeless stories is The Wizard of Oz. I believe it carries a powerful message for us right now—as individuals and as a nation—because we are all walking our own version of the yellow brick road.

We’re facing storms on every side—political division, racial tension, mental exhaustion, economic uncertainty, spiritual warfare, and relational disconnection. Yet even in the midst of it, God is calling us to keep walking, to trust the path He’s laid before us, and to believe that the road, however winding, will lead us back “home.”

Let’s look at Dorothy’s story for a moment.

Dorothy was an orphan girl living on the Kansas prairie with her Aunt Em, Uncle Henry, and her little dog, Toto. When a cyclone hit, she didn’t make it to safety in time. The storm lifted her and her house high in the air, and she landed in a strange land called Oz. Her house accidentally killed the Wicked Witch of the East, and from that moment, her journey began.

Dorothy was given the red shoes of the witch she defeated and a mission: to follow the yellow brick road to the Emerald City to find the Wizard, who could help her return home. Along the way, she met the Scarecrow who longed for a brain, the Tin Man who desired a heart, and the Cowardly Lion who needed courage. Each companion represented something vital that Dorothy—and we—must discover within ourselves.

The truth is, all of us have faced cyclones that have picked us up and dropped us into unfamiliar places—emotionally, spiritually, or relationally. Life can shift suddenly, and before you know it, you’re on a journey you never planned to take. But those very storms that uproot us are often the ones that carry us into our transformation.

God uses the winds that seem destructive to redirect us toward purpose. Dorothy’s journey wasn’t just about getting back to Kansas; it was about becoming the kind of woman who could appreciate home again. Likewise, God wants to use our challenges to transform our hearts, renew our minds, and build our courage for the journey ahead.

Sometimes, we meet people along the way who mirror pieces of ourselves—the wise ones who help us think clearly (like the Scarecrow), those who remind us to feel and love again (like the Tin Man), and those who encourage us to face our fears with boldness (like the Lion). These people are part of our destiny helpers, divine connections God sends to help us reach the promise.

The good news is that even in Oz, Dorothy was protected by a kiss—a reminder that God’s covering was on her the entire time. You are covered too. Every prophetic word spoken over your life, every helper God has sent, every red shoe moment that reminds you of victory—it’s all evidence that He is still with you.

No matter how long the road feels, keep walking. The yellow brick road represents the path of divine order, the steps God has already ordained for your life. It may twist and turn, but it always leads home.

And when you finally arrive, you’ll realize that “home” isn’t just a place—it’s the presence of God.

There truly is no place like home.

Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV)

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

Because he made you wait longer

“He Heals the Womb and the Heart”

I am a mother, and I love all my children. But I must admit — I never once thought about what would happen if I couldn’t have children. I took it for granted that one day, I simply would.

I remember the only time my mother ever had to come to school immediately when I was in kindergarten. My teacher, Ms. Steward, called her in because I had told my little five-year-old boyfriend that when we got married and had five babies, if any of them were boys, they needed to go straight to the garbage. I didn’t even understand what I had said wrong. But my teacher knew something in my perspective toward boys was off, even at the age of five.

Now that I look back, I see that the enemy was already planting seeds in my heart — trying to shape my perception long before I even knew who I was. The truth was, I grew up seeing a mother who favored my brother over her three daughters. She loved us, but there was a difference in how she handled him. And my father, too, managed us in ways that shaped my view of men. I didn’t realize it then, but I was quietly being groomed to mistrust, to expect pain, and to doubt that a man could be safe.

It wasn’t until much later that God showed me what was really going on.

We can look at Jacob’s story — how he worked fourteen years for the love of his life, Rachel. And when he finally married her, the Word says God closed her womb. Leah had child after child, but Rachel could not conceive. God was working something deeper in her heart. The same pattern of favoritism that Jacob learned from his parents showed up again in how he loved his children. Genesis 37:3 says, “Jacob loved Joseph more than all his other sons, because he had been born to him when he was old.”

Sometimes what God makes you wait longest for, you’ll love most deeply. Whether that’s a child, a marriage, or a promise — when it finally comes, you’ll know it was only by His hand.

To every parent who has been believing God for a child — hold on. Remember Sarah and Abraham, Elizabeth and Zechariah, and even Samson’s parents who were barren. It is never too late for God. He has seen every tear, and He has recorded every whispered desire. You may have been told “no” or “not yet,” but God’s timing is perfect, and His promise never fails.

For me, my battle wasn’t infertility — it was insecurity. The enemy tried to crush me in my worth. He tried to make me believe I couldn’t trust a man, that love would abandon me the way it did before. But God… He reached into my brokenness and healed what my childhood wounded.

The enemy didn’t want me to become a wife or a mother, but God had already ordained both. My greatest anointings flow from these two roles — wife and mother. Through them, God is revealing His heart of nurture, covering, and strength.

To every woman who has been crushed like I was — God is not done with you yet. Allow Him to heal your heart and prepare you for what’s coming. He is perfecting those things that concern you — and He will make it beautiful in His time.

Wait on the Lord. Be of good courage. He will strengthen your heart. (Psalm 27:14)

Adam, where are you?

We all know God is omnipresent and omniscient. The definition of omniscient means knows all. The definition of omnipresent means present everywhere at the same time. So, if God coexist in both dimensions and he has entered the garden many times to fellowship with Adam and Eve, why would he suddenly need to ask Adam where are you?

We can all assume that the question wasn’t for God to locate Adam. It was to bring Adam into a place of accountability and for him to give God a true account of where he was. God is still looking for men like Adam to come back into a place of vulnerability and accountability to allow themselves to be naked and not ashamed the way he created the original Adam.

Where was Adam spiritually? Where was Adam emotionally? Where was Adam mentally? Where was Adam with the assignment that God had given him in his purpose? Where was Adam with his accountability for the woman God gave him?

Adam went AWOL, absent without leave. He was still in the garden, but he had abdicated his position and godly authority because he submitted to something lesser. You are a man that is still in your home but emotionally, you have gone AWOL. You have decided the forbidden fruit of adultery, pornography, or fornication is better than living in the restraints of your calling and purpose.

God is still asking men the question today; Adam where are you?

God was looking for Adam and Eve to be accountable and remain naked and not ashamed. God desires for adults today to come back into a place of accountability in our relationships so he can restore the family and our rightful place of our dominion. Let’s see how this conversation begins.

 Genesis 3:9-10 But the LORD God called to Adam, and said to him, “Where are you?” He said, “I heard the sound of You [walking] in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so, I hid myself.”

 Stop hiding! They were hiding behind fig trees. Others are hiding behind a bottle of alcohol, sex, drugs or even work.

Adam, where are you?

11 And he said, who told thee that thou were naked? Hast, thou eaten of the tree, whereof I commanded thee that thou shouldest not eat?

12 And the man said, the woman whom thou gavest to be with me, she gave me of the tree, and I did eat.

So many men are still blaming the woman for their lack of accountability. How? Your spouse made you intentionally or unintentionally to feel unappreciated. Some men justify a vice as solace for the lack of disrespect they may feel and turn to a forbidden fruit that manifest in bread eaten in secret.

Adam, where are you?

13 And the Lord God said unto the woman, what is this that thou hast done? And the woman said, the serpent beguiled me, and I did eat.

Adam blamed Eve and Eve blamed the serpent. This vicious cycle continues to plague us today. They both took no responsibility for themselves, and the seed of the woman was left vulnerable. Our men are missing. Our women are left uncovered. Our children are left exposed. The enemy was given the right through the curse to bruise the heel of the seed of the woman. The seed of the woman was given the right to bruise his head, but the enemy is not just bruising the heel of the seed, he is crushing their heads too.

 The enemy is destroying our seed in abortions and so many are left in foster care. We must protect our children because little boys grow up to become men and little girls grow up to become women. However, if the little boy and girl remain crushed from childhood wounds, we will have a generation of adults struggling with arrested development. Thus, resulting in them not being able to manage the weight of their families because of the bruising of their heels and crushing of their head.

When the heel is bruised, it will affect their ability to walk and run in what God has called them too. God wants to heal our families, but it starts with being able to answer the question God asked in the garden before the curse, Adam where are you?

Many women are waiting on their Adam to step into their rightful place of dominion so they can take their place with him. When men get back in their rightful position with God, families will begin to heal. Coach David Burrus said in a podcast interview that when a man finds out who he is then his wife will appear. He said, I am Adam, so I’m here first because whoever I am is going to come out of me not to me. So to every Adam, you are looking for, YOU. The one that God is looking to appear first.

Be encouraged because God gave them a second chance when he gave them another seed, Seth and his son began to call upon the name of the Lord. God is going to give you another chance. Lord, let our men heal so our families can too, in Jesus’ name.

 Genesis 4:25 And Adam knew his wife again; and she bare a son, and called his name Seth: For God, said she, hath appointed me another seed instead of Abel, whom Cain slew.

26 And to Seth, to him also there was born a son; and he called his name Enos: then began men to call upon the name of the Lord.

The word on God's dating streets is: GROW

“Got to Get to God’s Street Called Grow”

Sesame Street was one of my fondest childhood memories. I learned so much watching that show. I can still see it clearly — the divider in our home that separated the living room from the dining room. I’d jump on the table, over the couches, and leap across that divider while singing, “Gotta get to Sesame Street!”

In my mind, I had built my very own Sesame Street — a place full of learning, laughter, and imagination. Every week, there was a new word on the street.

Now, years later, I see that so many of us are still looking for a word — not from Sesame Street, but in these dating streets. Yet, like my younger self, many are living in an imaginary place — jumping from one relationship to the next, chasing a feeling instead of waiting for a word.

We won’t slow down long enough to let that word divide between soul and spirit — the very thing that helps us grow into who we’re meant to be. We won’t wait on God to renew our strength and speak His word. But that’s the word right there: Grow.

It’s time to grow.

Some have stopped growing.

Some have given up on love.

Some are still playing in these dating streets, ending up hurt, disappointed, bitter, and frustrated.

But here’s the truth — God knows exactly how to connect the dots. He knows how to fit every missing puzzle piece together. He promised to lead us in paths of righteousness for His name’s sake (Psalm 23).

Somewhere along the way, many have let go of Mercy and Truth’s hands in their relationships. But God has already given us the strategy in His Word — how to order our steps, how to love rightly, and how to meet the one He designed just for us.

Like children, we don’t stop growing just because we’ve grown up physically. Michelle Obama said it best in her book Becoming:

“That’s one of the most useless questions an adult can ask a child — ‘What do you want to be when you grow up?’ As if growing up is finite. As if at some point you become something, and that’s the end.”

We are always becoming. Always growing.

And when I think about growth, purpose, and love, I imagine how my own purpose partner and I will one day stand before the throne of God — and I’m reminded of these beautiful scriptures:

Psalm 85:10-13

Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other.

Truth shall spring out of the earth; and righteousness shall look down from heaven.

Yea, the LORD shall give that which is good; and our land shall yield her increase.

Righteousness shall go before him; and shall set us in the way of his steps.

There’s something divine in that.

When we hold on to mercy and truth — really hold on — we attract heaven’s attention. It’s as if righteousness leans over the balcony of heaven to see who can make peace and truth hold a kiss for so long.

That kiss is eternal.

Because when mercy and truth become your standard — bound around your neck as ornaments, guiding your heart and your actions — righteousness and peace come together in your life. They don’t just visit; they dwell.

And when they do, heaven responds.

Righteousness releases God’s orders in the earth, causing goodness and increase to come forth. He promised that the steps of a righteous man are ordered by the Lord. That’s how purpose partners meet. That’s how divine alignment happens.

I’ve been through painful situations in my life — moments that could have destroyed me. But the only reason I’m still standing is because I refused to let go of mercy and truth’s hand.

I had to keep growing so God could give me the favor I needed to overcome.

So as you move through these dating streets — or any street where life finds you — don’t let bitterness, disappointment, or heartbreak stop your growth. Don’t let go of mercy and truth.

Instead, get on God’s street called “Grow.”

That’s where heaven notices you.

That’s where goodness is released.

Dream again

Dream Again — God Is Turning It While You’re Still in It

During our captivity, God promised to turn it—not when we came out of it, but while we were still in it. That’s the kind of God we serve. He doesn’t wait until the story looks pretty; He begins the transformation in the middle of the mess. And right there, He whispers a word to your weary spirit: Dream again.

I can only imagine the days our enslaved ancestors must have cried—mourning their stolen freedom, their broken families, their lost dreams. The women wept for their children. The men wept for their strength. And yet, amid the torment, they sang. They sang songs of hope, of deliverance, of a God they refused to let go of—even when their oppressors twisted His Word.

They believed that one day, things would be different. One day, their sons and daughters would walk free. One day, their prayers would find answers in generations they would never meet. They were dreaming not just for themselves—but for us.

God heard those songs. He collected those tears. And He’s answering through our lives today.

Genesis 4:9–12 reminds us that blood has a voice. Abel’s blood cried out from the ground, and God responded. Likewise, the blood of our ancestors still cries out—for justice, for restoration, for divine vindication. Their cries didn’t fade into the soil—they rose into Heaven. And now, God is responding through a generation that carries their mantle. We are the living fulfillment of their faith.

Isaiah 42:22 says, “But this is a people robbed and plundered… yet no one says, ‘Restore!’”  But today, we are saying it. We are the ones crying out, “Lord, restore!” We are the ones daring to believe that the same God who turned captivity for Zion is turning it for us—right now.

For those who allowed God to shape them in the fire of captivity, this next season will be marked by laughter, singing, and joy. Psalm 126 says, “When the Lord turned again the captivity of Zion, we were like them that dream.” That means the turnaround was so miraculous, they could hardly believe it was real. Their tears became the seed of their joy.

Some of you have been in long seasons of waiting—years of sowing in tears, years of praying through pain, years of wondering if God still sees you. But I hear the Spirit of the Lord saying, “I am turning it now.” Not later. Not someday. Now.

God is judging the spiritual enemies of our ancestors—the systems, the spirits, the cycles that tried to silence their legacy. And He is raising up men and women in this generation who will become the answer to their forefathers’ prayers. You and I are walking proof that God remembers His covenant through the bloodline.

Abraham was told that his descendants would be enslaved for four hundred years, but in the fourth generation, they would return to the promise. And here I stand, a fourth-generation descendant of my late great-grandfather, the Honorable Elijah Muhammad. Nearly twenty years ago, God turned my captivity amid a season of personal pain. I had to wait—just like Abraham. But what God has waited generations to reveal is now being made manifest through me, through you, and through those who refuse to stop believing.

It’s the fullness of time.

Even if you’re still in the middle of your captivity, God is turning it now. Your tears have watered the soil of your destiny. Your faith has become the bridge between generations. So, lift your head, dry your eyes, and dream again—because God is not waiting for you to come out. He’s moving right where you are.

🌾 “They that sow in tears shall reap in joy.” — Psalm 126:5

Getting through the gutter

“Perceive You Are King”

There comes a moment in every man’s life when he must perceive he is king.

Not because someone poured oil over his head, not because a crowd applauded, and not because of an outward sign—but because something inside of him shifts.

The Word says in 2 Samuel 5:12, “And David perceived that the Lord had established him king over Israel.”

There was no prophetic announcement this time. No prophet Samuel standing there with a horn of oil. No choir singing. God was ready to establish him—but David had to perceive it.

Some men are waiting for external confirmation when God is waiting on internal revelation.

He’s saying, “You don’t need another prophecy, another word, or another sign. You’ve already gone through the rejection, the wilderness, the betrayal, the heartbreak, and the hiding. You survived Saul’s spears. You outlasted the gossip. Now it’s time to perceive this is your season to take your place.”

David didn’t wait for someone else to tell him who he was—he discerned it.

And some of you, my brothers, are missing your season to be crowned and married because you’ve believed the lies of the enemy. The Word says a wife is a crown to her husband, but how can you wear your crown when you haven’t yet perceived you are king?

When David became king, the first city he conquered was Jerusalem.

2 Samuel 5:6–10 tells us the Jebusites mocked him, saying, “Even the blind and the lame can ward you off.” In other words, “You’re not strong enough. You’re not qualified. You can’t do this.”

And maybe you’ve heard those same words in your own life—mentally, financially, emotionally, or spiritually. Maybe you’ve been in a place where the enemy whispered, “God can’t give you what He promised.”

But here’s the truth: sometimes it’s not the outside enemy that defeats us—it’s the inner one. The fear. The doubt. The memory of failure that keeps replaying in our minds.

David had to conquer Jerusalem without destroying it. That required strategy, patience, and humility.

Pastor Keion Henderson once said, “God wants you to know that in order to conquer your spouse’s heart, you cannot destroy them to gain the respect and love you deserve.”

That hit deep. Because many relationships are in warfare, not from fists or fights, but from words that wound and silences that suffocate. Some hearts are bleeding quietly from emotional warfare.

But David’s men were told, “Whoever goes through the gutter will be captain.”

The gutter—symbolic of humility—represents the dark, low, hidden place that leads to breakthrough.

God is saying, “If you’re willing to go through the gutter—to face uncomfortable truths, to heal the wounds, to humble yourself—you’ll come out promoted.”

So what’s your Jerusalem?

Maybe it’s your marriage, your mind, your ministry, or your manhood. It might feel dark and lonely while you’re crawling through the process, but stay the course—because what once intimidated you, you’re about to conquer.

When David came out of that place, Jerusalem became his stronghold—his safe place.

And when you come out, your relationship, your calling, and your purpose will become your stronghold too.

Proverbs 16:32 says, “He that is slow to anger is better than the mighty; and he that rules his spirit than he that takes a city.”

So rule your spirit.

Lead with love.

Walk in humility.

You don’t have to destroy it to prove you’re king.

You just have to perceive that you already are.

Your speech betrays you

I was talking to someone very dear to me yesterday. She reminded me that all her life she has felt like she had to look out for herself without anyone to assist her. I reminded her she had God too. Sometimes before we know he is there; we feel like it’s us doing it all by ourselves. I know she isn’t the only one that has felt this way. I want to encourage you that even Jesus our Lord and Savior needed someone. He needed twelve disciples that were not perfect but were perfect for their assignments.

An apostle is a sent one by God to establish something new. Apostles are pioneers and often builders of a pattern that has not been before. They deal with root issues and uproot systemic issues that come to threaten that pattern they are called to build and establish. Well, Jesus had twelve original apostles and the word says one was a devil. Jesus absolutely could not fulfill his destiny without Peter or Judas.

Who has God showed you is irreplaceable and invaluable to your destiny?

Jesus knew all along that Peter and Judas would betray him at his greatest time of need. Heaven was betting on them and so was Jesus. He absolutely needed Peter and Judas to accomplish his kingdom purposes. We need our Peter and our Judas. No one, absolutely No one could discern from Jesus that he would be betrayed based on his interactions with them. He poured into them and allowed them to grow together. The wheat was growing with the tare until it was harvest time. It wasn’t time yet for Jesus to die.

Some people have asked me as I share my testimony, why didn’t I leave because of the way my late ex-husband was treating me. God had me interceding when I wanted to walk away. I was so broken and at my lowest pregnant with my last son. I remember praying on my washroom floor at 20 years old. I was crying so hard in a fetus position crying my soul out. This prayer came out of nowhere. I asked the father to give me a husband that would love me like Jacob loved Racheal and it was the next part that blew my own mind. I told him I had some issues. These were issues at that time I wasn’t even aware of that had occurred through previous moments of trauma of being dropped emotionally and in other ways.

But God knew.

As I wept, I asked him to allow my future husband to wait on me until I could get myself together. I knew I had ALL of heaven’s attention. Heaven bowed that day to listen to me weep. I didn’t understand the magnitude of that prayer until almost 10 years later when I was pregnant. My late ex-husband let me know the only reason he didn’t leave was because I was pregnant. He shared after leaving that his late stepfather told him to wait at least until I had the baby. In one of my intense days of praying after he left, the Lord reminded me of that day I asked him to wait until I could get myself together. He didn’t love me like Jacob loved Racheal though. God saved my life. My late ex-husband was my Judas. He brought me to my cross into my purpose. God was teaching me how to love like him, to forgive all while preparing me to be the wife I needed to be although I was rejected by him.

The word says out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks. Jesus was getting ready to be crucified and he was about to reveal somethings. Matthew 26:31–35. “I tell you the truth,” Jesus answered, “this very night, before the rooster crows, you will disown me three times.” But Peter declared, “Even if I have to die with you, I will never disown you.” And all the other disciples said the same.

Peter did something he didn’t realize he could do but God knew he was about to do. The word says in Jeremiah 9:17 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it? The Lord knows it.

The stage was being set for the perfect offense and pressure to cause Peters speech to betray him. It was undeniable that he had been with the Lord. His heart posture and the letter of God’s word was written in his heart. What is your heart posture concerning what God has revealed to you that you cannot deny? How will you respond when you are confronted with the truth? Will you respond like Peter did?

Matthew 29:69 Now Peter sat outside in the courtyard. And a servant girl came to him, saying, “You also were with Jesus of Galilee.”

70 But he denied it before them all, saying, “I do not know what you are saying.”

71 And when he had gone out to the gateway, another girl saw him and said to those who were there, “This fellow also was with Jesus of Nazareth.”

72 But again he denied with an oath, “I do not know the Man!”

73 And a little later those who stood by came up and said to Peter, “Surely you also are one of them, for your speech betrays you.”

74 Then he began to curse and swear, saying, “I do not know the Man!”

Maybe you are a man preparing for marriage and you are carrying a lot of weight. You are preparing for your future spouse and at times you are overwhelmed. You may be trying for her to see all you are doing like Jesus was telling his disciples. It was better for him to go so he could send the comforter and prepare a place for us. At times our mate can’t understand the pressure of you being you. Peter couldn’t understand Jesus’s path. But if you communicate and get an understanding it can avoid offense because your speech will betray you. How we respond when we are offended matters. Jesus uses it as an opportunity to reveal Peters heart to himself.

What has God recently showed you about your heart because of an offense?

John Bevere says, Offense is the bait of Satan. Peter was offended that they were associating him with Jesus. Who have you denied 3 times because of offense? There is hope for that relationship. Jesus told him before he did it, that he had prayed for him that the enemy would not be able to cause his faith to fail him.

There is restoration after betrayal when your speech betrays you.

Maybe you are a woman and you have been healed from past trauma and something in your relationship deeply triggered an old trauma? You were offended which triggered an offense in them. You shared your heart, and your relationship was affected causing you to be denied. Peter was able to be quickly restored because Jesus covered him in prayer before he told him it would happen. Can you see past Peter’s offense and cover your spouse? As a spouse can you hear the pain of their past and be compassionate without rejecting them but instead consider the cause of the trigger? Maybe you didn’t respond correctly to the offense like she didn’t because of pain. But Peter, can you consider the impact your actions had on her heart? There is nothing Jesus can’t heal. It didn’t change his purpose or his destiny. The word says with all your getting to get an understanding.

Peter was given an assignment from his betrayal. Jesus told him after he was restored to turn around and restore his brethren. Our commission is the same. We are to grow from every offense and take wisdom and impart it to others. Peter you are going to get everything God promised you.

Repairing the Breaches

Repairing the Breaches: Building Love on God’s Foundation

One of my favorite scriptures, Isaiah 58:12, says, “And they that shall be of thee shall build the old waste places: thou shalt raise up the foundations of many generations; and thou shalt be called, The repairer of the breach, The restorer of paths to dwell in.”

Lately, God has been calling me to look at what that means—not just in ministry or community—but in relationships and marriage. When Jada Edwards preached her message “Marriage on a Mission,” I was wrecked in the best way. She said when you want to build intimacy, you cheer your spouse on when they’re trying to love you, not because they’re perfect at it, but because they’re trying. You’re not inspecting their efforts; you’re acknowledging them. That hit me like a microphone drop.

She shared that her husband is a 9 on the gratitude scale, and she’s a negative 4. She said if she pushes hard and makes it to a 2, but misses the two biggest things he does, that’s when he has to build a bridge between the 9 and the 2. Because when it’s about inspection, intimacy dies—but when it’s about intention, love grows. That perspective opened my heart in ways I didn’t expect.

It reminded me of my previous marriage. My late ex-husband had started to pull away when I needed him most. I was carrying the weight of a newborn, another child, and the heaviness of my own healing. God was taking me through spiritual surgery, dealing with old wounds from my childhood and teaching me to become the mother I never had. It was painful, yet purposeful.

He didn’t understand what God was doing in me. His normal had been stability, a loving mom, and consistency. Mine had been rejection, survival, and emotional silence. While I was grieving what I never had, he was comparing me to the mother he did have. Instead of repairing the breaches in my heart, he became an inspector of my brokenness.

One day at work, I was sitting in a staff meeting at The Women’s Treatment Center, where mothers recovering from addiction lived with their children. The medical director said, “Let’s honor the women who made it downstairs this week for breakfast with their kids on time.” In that moment, something broke in me. I ran to the bathroom and cried uncontrollably. I said, “God, I’m not on drugs or alcohol, and I’m just as broken as they are.” I heard the Lord whisper, “I will honor you.”

That day, I realized God was rebuilding the breaches in me that my husband refused to touch. He was restoring the waste places left by generations of women who suffered silently. My mother was alive but emotionally unavailable. My grandmother endured abuse. My great-grandmother considered taking her life. But I decided the cycle stops here.

In marriage and relationships, repairing the breaches means seeing your partner through God’s eyes. It’s acknowledging effort over perfection. It’s using your words to build, not tear down. Proverbs 18:21 says, “Life and death are in the power of the tongue.” Every word you speak has the ability to heal or to wound.

Ask yourself—what areas is God calling you to rebuild in your spouse’s heart? What foundation from past generations is He asking you to raise up again? When you choose love, gratitude, and mercy over comparison, you are repairing the breach. You are restoring paths for generations to dwell in peace.

Your love is legacy.

Your grace is healing.

Your words are construction tools in the hands of God.

Be a builder. Be the repairer of the breach. 💛

Don't take your father's God's

“Don’t Take Your Father’s Gods With You”

Jacob decided enough was enough. He had spent twenty long years under the control of his father-in-law, Laban—a man who was ruthless and manipulative. The same man who tricked him into marrying the wrong wife, changing his wages ten times, and always trying to outsmart him. But Jacob had reached a breaking point. He was done. It was time to leave.

So, he quietly gathered his wives, his children, and all he had worked for, and prepared to slip away in the night. He knew that if he didn’t move in secret, Laban might take back everything—including his family. But even in Jacob’s fear, God was watching. Laban pursued him, but before he could reach Jacob, God appeared to him in a dream and warned him not to touch Jacob.

If God protected Jacob, He will protect you too. Maybe you’ve dealt with treacherous people in your bloodline—manipulation, betrayal, cycles that keep repeating—but God wants you to know that He is in control.

When Jacob and Laban finally came face-to-face, Laban accused Jacob of stealing his idols. Jacob, confident in his integrity, declared, “If you find them, you can kill the one who took them.” But Jacob didn’t know that the love of his life, Rachel, had taken her father’s idols and hidden them.

This moment teaches us something powerful—be careful what you come into agreement with. Heaven and hell both listen to the words that leave your mouth. Jacob had no idea that a secret from the one closest to him was hidden right under his tent. Sometimes, the things that keep us bound are not from strangers, but from the people we love who are still clinging to the “gods” of their fathers.

Jacob’s story started as a short-term escape—a hideout to get away from his brother Esau—but that “temporary” season lasted twenty years. Yet, even in the delay, God had made him a prophetic promise: “I will bring you home.”

Maybe you’re like Jacob—waiting on a promise that’s been delayed for years. God hasn’t forgotten. The promise still stands.

This was my own journey. I asked God to give me the faith to believe for things my ancestors never saw—blessings stolen for generations, even dating back to slavery. I found myself in generational warfare. Like Jacob, I was laboring for what my soul longed for—family, wholeness, and generational restoration.

Jesus said in Matthew 12:29, “How can one enter a strong man’s house and spoil his goods, except he first binds the strong man?” I had to bind every strong man that ruled my bloodline. I was fighting not just for myself, but for my lineage—for those coming after me. It was the hardest battle of my life, but I was determined to be the one who broke the cycle.

Right before Jacob reached his homeland—his promise—Rachel died in childbirth, just thirty-one miles from the promise. So close, yet she didn’t make it. God is saying to you: Don’t fall short of your promise because of partial obedience. Don’t let hidden idols—old habits, pride, unforgiveness, or disobedience—keep you from the fullness of what He has for you.

I’ve wept over losses, over promises that seemed delayed, but I realized—God was breaking my heart for the generations, for the souls still bound, for the wealth stolen from my family line. And like Jacob, I didn’t even realize that God was right there in that place with me.

He’s still the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. He hasn’t changed. He’s calling you to leave your father’s gods behind and take hold of every generational promise with full obedience.

It’s time to go forward—without the idols, without the old cycles. It’s time to receive everything God promised you and your descendants. Don’t stop short of destiny. It’s too costly.

The dawning

You Are Being Raised as an Anomaly

You are being raised as an anomaly — a divine exception, crafted by God’s own hands for an uncommon purpose. You’ve spent a season in the background, hidden from the noise and the spotlight. But don’t mistake that hiddenness for rejection. God has been building you in secret — purging, pruning, and rooting you deeply in His love. He wanted to make sure you were ready.

Every trial, every delay, every quiet season has been God’s preparation for your revelation. You are a record breaker. There is something about you that has never been done before — something heaven is about to unveil through your obedience.

Think about it:

• Mary was the only virgin to ever give birth without being touched by a man.

• Moses was the only one God spoke to from a burning bush.

• Elijah was the only prophet to receive a double portion of Elisha’s mantle.

• Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit before Jesus was even born.

• Esther was the only woman the king extended his scepter to without being summoned — and she wasn’t even crowned yet.

• John the Baptist was declared the greatest prophet to ever live.

• Jonah was the only man swallowed by a whale and lived three days inside it.

• Noah found favor so deep it covered his entire family.

• Abraham was the only one asked to sacrifice his promised son.

• Sarah birthed a miracle at ninety years old.

• Samson killed thousands with the jawbone of a donkey.

• Gideon defeated an army with only 300 men.

• David took down a giant with a sling and a stone.

Each one of them was the only one to do something extraordinary — not because they were perfect, but because they were chosen.

So I ask you: What has God called you to do that no one else has been called to do?

This is your confirmation — you are next. God is not just fulfilling my prophetic words; He’s fulfilling yours too. Many are standing in their final season — the one that comes right before manifestation. My final season began on 3/18/18, and last year, I stepped into my finest hour.

Now it’s your turn. God is sending your destiny helpers — the ones assigned to recognize, support, and align with your light. Others will come too — drawn to what God is doing through you. Because you, my friend, are that light set upon a hill that cannot be hidden.

All things are being made new. The new wine is coming. The glory of the Lord is rising upon you. The camels are coming — bringing divine provision, favor, and resources for your next.

You are standing in your dawn. The darkness is lifting. The sun is coming up. You are on the brink of your tomorrow, and it’s brighter than you can imagine.

Isaiah 60:1–6 says it best:

“Arise, shine; for your light has come, and the glory of the Lord has risen upon you… Nations will come to your light, and kings to the brightness of your rising… The multitude of camels shall cover you… they shall bring gold and incense and proclaim the praises of the Lord.”

This is your moment. You are not behind. You are being revealed.

Stand up, shine bright — because the world is about to see what heaven has been preparing all along.

Humiliated in my own eyes

There David was after years and years of running and hiding in caves and fighting battles and realizes he has discovered the secret of the blessing of God’s presence. God’s presence was with the ark of the covenant. David understood that to be blessed he needed God’s presence, and he was willing to be humiliated in his own eyes to get it. Have you ever had to go through something while others looked down on you and persecuted you for being willing to do it to get God’s blessing?

 God promised that if we trust him, we would never be brought to shame. David came back to bless his house but was greeted with disdain. As the ark of the Lord was entering the City of David, Saul’s daughter, Michal, watched from a window. And when she saw King David leaping and dancing before the Lord, she despised him in her heart.

How many men have overcome their anger, fear of failures and many other secret battles and the women in their lives don’t see the battles and strength it took to get to this place of accomplishment? She saw one situation and didn’t judge righteously the weight of that moment. Be careful what you see as dishonorable that God counts honorable.

David leaped and danced. You had to endure a season of dishonor when you were being honorable. You fasted and sowed financial offerings when you were not appreciated.  You had to endure something that others felt was humiliating and would have never endured to make a situation right. You had to challenge a religious tradition, a generational curse attached to a giant or a system? You had to appear stripped like David and appear dishonorable before those that you should have been held in honor. You had to make a hard decision that caused you to be vulnerable and brought shame in your life, but you did it with honorable intentions.

 Are you willing to be humiliated in your own eyes to honor God and get the blessings he has for you?

 2 Sam 6:20 When David returned home to bless his household, Michal daughter of Saul came out to meet him and said, “How the king of Israel has distinguished himself today, going around half-naked in full view of the slave girls of his servants as any vulgar fellow would!”

21 David said to Michal, “It was before the Lord, who chose me rather than your father or anyone from his house when he appointed me ruler over the Lord’s people Israel—I will celebrate before the Lord. 22 I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes. But by these slave girls you spoke of, I will be held in honor.” 23 Therefore Michal the daughter of Saul had no child unto the day of her death.”

David knew that it was God that had positioned him, and he wasn’t going to let his wife steal his moment of victory. He didn’t allow her to minimize him after all he had been through to get that place in God. We can not let the enemy through others make us feel like we should walk in shame when God has brought us into a season of victory. She counted him dancing out of his clothes as a weakness, but God saw it as honorable that he was willing to become transparent and vulnerable before the people even if he felt humiliated in his own eyes for God. God is challenging us to not allow the shame of our past, our battles or anyone in our lives to pull us out of this season of victory. To every David that has overcame and been willing to be humiliated in your own eyes to get what God said you could have, I want to say: Thank you. God is going to establish your throne forever like he did King David as you continue to acknowledge and stay a man after God’s own heart.

The picture that I took,

Does not fit in an album or a book,

It is much bigger. 

It lives in my heart and is framed by time and chance,

Defined more than by one moment or a circumstance,

It is protected by the love of God that covers blemishes and mistakes, 

Protected from ripes or breaks,

It is not subject to contortion,

or distortion.

This image was taken the moment you decided to say yes,

To Gods blessing and best.

Not to perfection, 

but to a new direction. 

It cast down imaginations and brought them captive in my mind,

And removed the crinkles and tears that the enemy tried to use to blind, 

Us,

With an image to capture the pain,

But It was developed without blemish or shame,

For the day you overcame,

you became,

The man that chose to love me and give me your last name. 

See this picture does not hang on a wall,

It has been restored and will soon be seen by all,

on display,

Like a fine piece of art that was once hidden and tucked away. 

In this picture, I see forgiveness and grace,

These are the lines that run through your face,

Not wrinkles of time, not sorrow from the tears in your eyes, 

from past mistakes that try to torment you with fears and lies,

But I see the love that defines your days,

because you allowed him to change your ways,

 and you continue to give him the praise. 

You changed the image that forever lives in my heart.

Of a man that I can trust and feel safe from sorrow, 

To share my tomorrow,

forever protected from being destroyed or ever ripped apart,

Because you are a man like David after God’s heart. ❤️

My Toy Story

My Toy Story: Love, Growth, and Glory

In life, Jesus told us we would have tribulations — but to be of good cheer, because He has already overcome the world. We all have our share of heartbreaks, disappointments, and mistakes, yet somewhere inside each of us lives the memory of a time when life was simple — when our greatest joy came from something as small as a favorite toy.

As children, those toys were everything. They gave us comfort, companionship, and imagination. But as we grow up, we start exchanging toys for people. We trade make-believe stories for relationships, hoping that love will last forever. And sometimes, our heartbreak becomes someone else’s heartbeat — we become the one discarded, while someone else becomes the treasure.

I want to encourage you today: create your own Toy Story. Remember why your person was once your favorite. In the “Toy Story” movies, we see the beauty of loyalty, friendship, and growth — themes we often forget as adults. Woody didn’t always have it easy, and Buzz sometimes forgot who he was, but they always found their way back to their purpose — and to each other. There’s a lesson in that for us.

When we stand at the altar and make a vow “till death do us part,” we’re promising that no matter what comes or goes, for better or for worse, we won’t quit. Jesus said, “There is no greater love than this — that a man lay down his life for his friend.” That’s the kind of love that refuses to discard what’s been entrusted to it.

You are your partner’s favorite. You can see what they can’t see, and that’s what makes your love powerful. You choose to grow together so you never outgrow each other. You put away childish things — not the joy, not the laughter, but the immaturity that stops growth — and you begin to think, love, and forgive with a renewed mind.

Marriage is about covering each other’s blind spots, protecting one another in prayer, and keeping your covenant guarded from the enemy’s attacks. It’s about making sure your partner feels seen, valued, and honored — never like an afterthought. You challenge each other to grow in faith and reach new depths in God together.

You never agree with the lies of Hell about who they are or who they can become. Instead, you become a mirror that reflects God’s truth back to them — even when they forget it. If they’re struggling, help them overcome. If they’re weary, remind them that love never fails.

Don’t let fear of divorce hang over your marriage like a threat. Instead, let joy and grace flood your union. Jesus endured the cross because of the joy set before Him. That’s the kind of joy that holds you steady when life gets hard. That’s the joy that helps you find laughter again — even after tears.

And that joy is captured in my personal reflection — “My Toy Story.”

⸻

My Toy Story

Take me to Infinity and beyond and I’ll always make sure your BUZZ stays LIT,

I’ll be the one reminding you we can’t quit,

You’ll always know you’ve got a friend in me,

and you will never lose your sight and can’t see,

See,

You’ll never outgrow me and not want to play,

I’ll always be your favorite boo not your toy,

Because you will be my man and not my boy,

Your name will be tattooed on my heart and not my shoe,

I’ll pull your heart string and let you know you got a snake in your boot,

stay away from her because she’s cute.

And when others walk in the room,

I won’t be consumed,

and lay down and pretend like I don’t know what to do,

and no matter who comes or goes,

God knows,

I’ll fix that tear in your arm so you can reach,

and

You’ll never sit on the shelf next to donkey while I preach,

I’ll be the one you can ride,

with and always by your side,

See we will always get past that monkey,

Cause there is no day,

I pray,

That could make us not care,

Or be able to bear,

Or ever keep us from getting free,

We will always have our own toy story,

and everyday we will find another way to reveal His glory,

and nobody will ever be able to steal your voice,

because I’ll be the one guarding you and we will never get a divorce,

never placed in a bag and given away,

because I outgrew you on any given day,

because I’m going to get a man not a boy,

and this will be our story,

and God will always get the glory.

Coloring outside the lines

Coloring Outside the Lines: Lessons on Love, Faith, and Growth

This past year, I’ve learned so much a relationship podcast. Every episode challenged me to look deeper — not just at relationships, but at the way our culture has shaped what we believe about love, success, and worth.

Culture teaches us that we must have a certain amount of money, a master’s degree, or even a PhD before we’re “ready.” We’re told we need to be completely healed, date for a specific length of time, or marry someone “high value.” And once we finally get that person, we discard them like a picture we colored outside the lines — messy, imperfect, not worth keeping.

We are failing in relationships while thriving in careers that don’t fulfill us. We are fighting for political causes that have nothing to do with the heart of heaven. We invest in everything — careers, possessions, image — but forget to invest in ourselves and in each other.

It’s time to grow again. To stop chasing the world’s version of perfect and start fighting for what truly matters — our faith, our legacy, and our families. Because in the end, souls are the only thing you can take to heaven with you.

When I was a little girl, I was the youngest of four. My siblings had already gone to kindergarten, already learned the basics — how to color inside the lines. I used to sit and watch my sister, just a year older than me, amazed at how neatly she stayed inside the lines. I couldn’t wait to learn how to do that.

But as I’ve grown older, I’ve learned that to survive — and to thrive — in love and relationships, sometimes you have to color outside the lines.

The “American dream” once meant marrying young, having children after the wedding, and building a life that looked neat and proper. But times have changed. Now, both parents often work full-time, kids spend 10–12 hours a day in daycare, and everyone comes home exhausted, starting the cycle all over again.

Some women today have settled for sharing a man, convincing themselves that a piece of him is better than none at all. Others have given up altogether. Our families and our faith are starting to look like pictures we colored outside the lines — smudged, messy, and misunderstood.

But here’s the truth: your journey doesn’t have to look like anyone else’s.

Whether you date or don’t, marry early or late, meet someone online or through divine timing — it’s your story. Maybe God has you on preserve, like Esther, waiting for the right season to enter the king’s presence. Maybe your love story will be arranged by God, like Abraham did for Isaac. Don’t let culture cancel your values or kingdom principles.

Everyone has a different coloring book with a unique picture inside. The colors you choose, the timing, the shape of your lines — that’s between you and God.

One of my favorite love stories is Jacob and Rachel. Jacob loved Rachel so much that he worked fourteen years for her. Fourteen years! He was tricked, humiliated, and delayed, yet he stayed committed. Today, culture might call that being a “simp” — but Jacob’s love was steadfast. He wasn’t foolish; he was faithful. That’s what real love looks like — coloring outside the lines of what’s popular to live out what’s eternal.

So, here’s what I’ve learned:

Let God draw your picture.

Let Him choose your colors.

And when your story doesn’t look like everyone else’s — when people say you’ve colored outside the lines — smile.

Because sometimes the most beautiful pictures are the ones that don’t fit inside anyone’s box.

Your love story doesn’t have to look perfect to be purposeful.

Keep growing, keep believing, and keep coloring — even if it’s outside the lines.

Whether you date or don’t, marry early or late, meet someone online or through divine timing — it’s your story. Maybe God has you on preserve, like Esther, waiting for the right season to enter the king’s presence. Maybe your love story will be arranged by God, like Abraham did for Isaac. Don’t let culture cancel your values or kingdom principles.