Don’t Choke on the Pill Life Is Shoving Down Your Throat
For some people, swallowing a pill comes naturally. For others, they choke. That’s exactly how I felt when I heard the words, “You are a mistake.” Four words from my husband that echoed a lifetime of pain from my childhood. My mother had once said them to me too, and suddenly, old wounds of abandonment I thought were healing resurfaced.
There I was, in a season where God was mending the deepest cracks of my heart, healing the pain of rejection, delivering me from the chains of my past. And yet, at the same time, my husband’s words became a cork, trapping me in a well of brokenness so deep that I began to agree with the enemy: I should not be here. I was choking—choking on life, choking on the pill that life was shoving down my throat.
This was not the way it was supposed to be.
Maybe you know the feeling. Maybe this past year—especially during the chaos of COVID-19—you’ve felt the same way I did. Maybe at times, you’ve felt like Naomi. Let’s not forget her story.
In Ruth 1:21, Naomi says:
“I went out full, and the LORD hath brought me home again empty: why then call ye me Naomi, seeing the LORD hath testified against me, and the Almighty hath afflicted me?”
Naomi’s name means “pleasant,” and her life once reflected that. She was married, had two sons, and family was central to her life—not just because she loved them, but because her inheritance and prosperity were intertwined with their well-being. But then tragedy struck, and she demanded to be called Mara, meaning “bitter.”
Life had shoved a pill down her throat too. The famine, the loss of her husband and sons, the emptiness of her home—she choked under it all. She could not have anticipated this season of suffering. Maybe you can relate. Maybe before COVID-19, you and your family felt secure. You had stability, hope, a future. And then—just like Naomi—you experienced loss: a loved one, a job, a dream, a sense of normalcy. Life isn’t what it used to be, and the weight of it is hard to swallow.
But here’s the truth: don’t choke. Don’t allow the circumstances around you to dictate your final outcome. Naomi thought she had nothing left, but her wisdom became priceless. Because Ruth listened, she and her daughter-in-law reconnected to God’s blessings. Ruth’s union with Boaz not only restored their lives but also positioned them in the lineage of Jesus.
What looks like emptiness today is not your final story. God can take your pain, your rejection, your heartbreak, and turn it into a testimony of restoration. Trust Him like I did. Trust Him like Naomi did. Allow God to heal your brokenness. Don’t let the pill life is shoving down your throat choke you.
Stay connected. Stay faithful. Keep walking even when it hurts. Your breakthrough is closer than you think, and your obedience now will shape the blessings of generations to come.